--- NOTES
So, sometimes its perhaps as if my brain misremembers quotes, or pieces them together. They are maybe abominations but still they may point in a way not quite yet described so I am storing them here. There is a greater freedom in the end to be in my own words.
--- QUOTES
2020-06-28 - To my most despised problem, O Lord, Thou hast given me the name remembrance and forgetting. But in the Night I am left with the Symbols dead-shedded surface alone, naturally, as to remember is to remember. For to taste the kernal, I cannot simply look at the husk. Or in the Night, there is by definition by which to see. Is there a lamp by which I can still see? Can my mind not always be lit? Where I can see and remember?
2020-06-28 - You must read enough of the great Saints and Sages, that you can invoke their speech, such that one has the contact, and can put forth problems and therein find solutions securely. (related to Freyas capacity of "knowing what they will say?" after 30 pages or something)
2020-06-28 - When the sunsets, and the Night comes; why must I always forget the Day?
2020-06-28 - Please Lord, help me name this unnamed trouble.
2020-06-26 - If you see some Truth, and merely tuck it in some pocket of the mind, you commit sin. Give it space so as to let it live and let what must die, die or be transformed in that Truth. Or you will build yourself a prison in hell made of gemstones.
2020-06-26 - then; you will laugh and cry in joy, after running to your Father, for in the game you carried yourself too far and became startled.
2020-06-06 - theres something im looking for behind the quotations
2020-06-06 - the thing of which all my current works are early foundations.
2020-06-06 - if you wish to seek the favor of spirits watching you in your room through dance, you have to really give it so as to entertain them.
2020-06-06 - sometimes I feel like my whole life is preparing for an adventure that I will not take.
--- JBKEYS
- fiction can be more non-fiction than non-fiction.
- "on waking,
- "what to do now?
- Always on the path
- "all is forgivable"?
- "Every path is valid.
- "making today worth it?
- "Fear dies with the self.
- it[the site] must be made open
- "what do i think about ...
- "what do i feel about ... ?
- Can you force God to happen?
- "if this be thy will o lord.
- "only the powerful can save?
- "what do i believe about ...
- you cant flow without energy
- "is there a Divine Helper? > ?
- "Potential is Divine potential
- "one step at a time, for now. ~ sjb"
- "how to surrender? how to offer?
- "Be still and you will know peace
- "bid your time, for it is coming
- "The cure for madness is certainty?
- "Reading is not the essential thing.
- "When you are not sure what to do? >
- "The Will to live must become strong?
- "You gain more experience on hard mode"
- "asking for the strength to do something
- "Who was/is Jesus Christ in the highest?
- dissecting the universe one item at a time
- "information, knowledge-Knowledge, Truth?
- "Take your time, you have all of eternity"
- "You cannot have real success without love"
- All paths lead to the same place eventually.
- "Does God know of the Destiny of one's soul?
- "From broken branches grow beautiful flowers
- "look up later: Comparison of comm and shells
- "if it cant be destroyed, can it be improved?
- "there is always something which we can offer
- "There is something there which I see not yet
- "what distress is this? is this distress? > ?
- "Love lost and rediscovered is worth the loss"
- "328: Don't count your books before their read.
- "In response to not-knowingness/I dont know > ?
- "to see everywhere the Will of God. #irritation
- "In this universe there is space for everything"
- "please Lord, help me with this unnamed trouble.
- "Straight out of the horses mouth and into mine.
- "the winds of change create change, warm or cold
- "There is so much work to do, but all in due time
- Discover your ideal and work backwards from there.
- If life is a game; could we really only play once?
- "Programming Terms to investigate: dynamic typing,
- If you work on your days off; you will be successful.
- "What should I do right now? > Remember and Offer?
- How am I to remember?
- "who am I? > ?, I aspiring visionary. A late bloomer.
- "From broken branches grow the most beautiful flowers"
- It's all or nothing, for anything else is not enough."
- "all the disconnected threads, come together in the end"
- "programming is a suitable medium as any to do His work.
- "What needs die or change for a man to be reborn Divine?
- If you won't run towards your duty be sure to walk often.
- "two earplugs are a million times better than one earplug"
- "Everyone has their own subjective experience, that sucks."
- If I am to carry on, I must extract utility from this suffering.
- "Optimism and realism had a child; experiential pragmatism"
- "Feed on only as much dynamite has your identity can handle.
- "Irritation?: Perhaps is the greatest call for pratyahara?$"
- I see some of your consciousness, in the reflection of your words.
- "Is nothing in comparison to that which haunted Saints - Crowley?
- "One of the best things to do is to read Savitri. Also very safe.
- "Sight, sound, and taste are really such treasures of the Spirit.
- and all words point to some reality, though all reality is beyond words
- "how would you go about programming a program to program programs?
- Sometimes when lost one may find more then one could ever imagine.
- "This moment is perfect, all is as it should be. The Divine Will.
- "why do I forget? > you forget because you are still divided. / tm?
- "big steps and a fast stride in one direction will get you anywhere"
- "What are my passions? > dance? singing? programming? sri aurobindo?
- "aligning with gods will is the best decision because god knows best.
- "If you are willing to pay the price you can have anything you want."
- "play to win, play for fun, or both, regardless life is still a game"
- "What can I do, in so that doing so, the makes the day seems worth it?
- "I love to share what I love, especially when the thing itself is love"
- "to steal anything I do, is to make a dead copy of something evolving."
- A tattoo is, at the very least, proof of your capacity to make decisions
- "To the eye that can see, Truth can be found anywhere, Beauty everywhere?
- To the Eye that can See, All is God.
- "when you feel yourself coming up but you havent taken any drugs, its .."
- God is there behind even the most disgusting horrors. Supporting its existence.
- My inner child has a crush on your inner child xoxox ?? who? this sounds tonyish
- "surrendering to gods will is probably one of the best things one could do.
- "Give up the things you want most and you can have the things you love most"
- "I imagine the cure for anxiety or being anxious is probably trust or faith.
- "I imagine the cure for anxiety or being anxious is probably trust or faith.
- "Don't confuse superficial differences as something that is at all important"
- "May we all fly to infinite heights together upon the cosmic winds of change"
- "seemingly hopeless on my own, but unwilling surrender to God, is just awful.
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- "Thank you sweet God for these gifts which thou bestowst upon me. #irritation
- "What of free-will, the world demands programmers, it lures with such treasures.
- "Sometimes 'I Survived' seems a cop-out, othertimes, it seems like an heroic feat. Still, later, it may be a devasting mistake.
- "A few minutes of practice isn't hard for the will, but for the ego, so practice."
- "exercise: parkour (balance(single leg, closed eyes, squats), jumping), gymnastics
- If I truly decided to count all my blessings it would take me the rest of my life.
- "Everyday/Every day: 1 minute module? Every day you are going to read Savitri. / tm
- "all statements contain some partial truth, this one included" inspired by ken wilber
- "Ask God for the strength to endure and the will to do his works. It will get harder.
- "Be excessively proud of all that you are but in speech keep it a well guarded secret"
- Tell them you like it and ask them questions about it if you are genuinely interested.
- "Everyone is just so different, and yet there we are; another thing we have in common."
- "If you never want to take a day off from work: its the right job and you will be successful"
- "If I wish to know the Truth, then being sober, I will experience what is relative to who I am?
- "bare minimum is to offer a single moment. or a single gesture. feels insulting though. how odd.
- "the Divine Care: the Divine takes care of them who put their trust entirely in the Divine? / tm
- "People are a lot like grapes in that given enough pressure out explodes their juicy delight. - AE
- yeah i still dont want to work.
- i have work to do ~ (07:06:13 PM) integralyogin@gmail.com/A1645778:
- "When everything is done as an offering to God... then I am free. see 'surrender our conscious will'
- "disgust, irritation ~ what treasure's lay waiting when these things come to bear their hidden fruits?
- Bugs that sneak into your house are there to teach you one thing: the right thing isn't the easy thing.
- "I have this growing list of quotes, but what am I to do with it? Memorize? Organize? Interpret? Other?
- "should questions be on the top of the file so they come up first, so as to better increase answer time?
- "textures: If 4 walls of a room are tv's, then some very cool 3d art or video could be shown in 3D. FUCK!
- "Rest in the silence and the peace. If a headache brought you to those things they would be well worth it.
- "The work load may stay the same or increase but there is still benefit in choosing the work for yourself"
- "in regards to suicide > is there anything worth living for? anything that is the counter to such feelings?
- @integralyogin "If life is a game then take your turn, play well, have fun and then try another game after"
- To undercover ones definite purpose is like finding a light in a dark cavern that turns out to be a labyrinth.
- Life has always been difficult for people but now with so much freedom we must choose difficulty for ourselves.
- "the internet is like a multidimensional bridge which can act like homes for trolls, but also as paths to truth
- "Seeing a fly bang incessantly against a pane of glass reminds me of my early attempts at spiritual development.
- Seeing a fly bang incessantly against of pane of glass; will someone open the window for me?
- "Remembering many past moments of beauty, of good times and of the high truths realized does one's mood wonders.
- "things I love: chess, particular video games, sri aurobindo, technology, evernote, drugs, ninjitsu, swordfighting
- "If life is a game; then it consists of turns, parts, rules, strategies, matches, rematches and of course other games"~ jb
- "I want to create something such that if it existed when I was young, would have helped me learn expontentially more.
- I want to create somrthing such that if it existed when I was young, that would be the world I would have rather been born into.
- "Remember all the past moments of beauty, the good times and the highest truths realized, it does ones mood wonders."
- "You can play to win, play for fun, or both, and more. Regardless, life is still a game, and the ending will be Epic.
- "and though I feel lost and confused, there is still, undigested, the near infinite knowledge waiting in Savitri(the text)"
- "The fact that the light and darkness first come in cycles is no excuse to sanction the prolongation of the ignorance.
- "Forgiveness after retaliation is painful for you are then left completely alone with your own, now burdened conscience."
- "Man demands miracles that he may have faith; he wishes to be dazzled in order that he may see" "So look the fuck around"
- To undercover ones definite purpose is like finally finding a flashlight in a dark cavern that turns out to be a labyrinth.
- "when a big gross bug enters into my house and vision, I often kill it. Lets hope God is more graceful and less disgusted.
- "in regards to disgust, irritation is a form of anger, I am angry with myself for being unable to bear the shocks of existence
- "If you want massive transformation you'll need massive action, but remember the scale with which mass is measured is relative."
- "all areas of human pursuit touched by spirit: female deity painting(art); grand nexus temple(social/); define v100(information).
- "how to offer? > if it is how you do something that matters rather then what you do then perhaps the solution is to roll the die.
- "I feel lost and powerless. Yet I know, at some point, I will have to adventure through the depths of hell. So I will be strong.
- "supermind. practical nanotech, artifical intelligence, 3d printing(supramental creation), rare or unique items, a dungeon crawler.
- "Do I only have visions of stabbing my leg when high? as a means of releasing excess consciousness-force? of dealing with overwhelm?
- "my ninjitsu training regiment: iron shirt training, stealth, close and range weapon training, listening skill, no movement skill, lockpicking,
- "Perhaps the merit in madness is that it requires peace to be developed. Which shows that madness brings with it the potential for a great power.
- "What is this that I am experiencing? and why must I put a name on experience? to know? so that I may best act? Can I offer up the will to know? >
- "my brain seems to sometimes melt, or like its in a process of breaking down, which would be important if it was trying to reassemble into a higher-order.
- "A point will surely come, as it always does, when we find meaning in our suffering, when it shows itself for what it really is, the means of our transformation.
- "If you can abuse drugs then you can abuse eating, sleeping, television, working, spending, video games, masturbating, your self, others, the environment. What is my duty?
- "Injunctions: Savitri, Creating, Meditation, Prayer, Walking, Programming, Study, Offering/Sacrifice, Knife throwing, Ninjitsu, Ballet, Neuroscience, Law, Philosophy, Cleaning,
- "in regards to my stuggles of getting out of bed.. perhaps the solution is to pray for the strength to get out of bed. I imagine that done sincerely and consistently will work.
- "when I forget that I am an aspiring visionary.. I suffer. But when my vision oncemore unfolds then my faith returns. and it eventually returns. it always returns. Inspiration.
- "what value am I to the world? what value am I to God? > Whenever there is any difficulty we must always remember that we are here exclusively to accomplish the Divine's will.. > tm
- "it is interesting how irritation can exist without anyone else, such as as being uncomfortable for an extended period of time. it is related to frustration, which connects to anger.
- "irritation: consciousness is still on the surface? why does God bestow the gift of irritability and sources of irritation upon me? you are that which irritates you. how fucked is that.
- "I imagine that this comes as a result of being, such as a being that feels the need for something to exist in the world, or has something to give. so like being and doing, soul and purpose. my self
- "at its best I would consider divine anger Her means to destroy obstacles, to move things the fuck along, otherwise left on their own things may take all eternity to change. If there was no need for anger it wouldnt exist
- "you say you seek the Divine, but how sincerely? I imagine* God say, I test your longing. or until the lower nature is purified, i must drop from his status. Only the one who can give everything, enjoys the Divine All everywhere.
- "has potentially something to do with desire, physical incapacity and wanting things to be other then what they are, probably relates to a lack of surrender. like if this be your will God, then may i accept it. patience. let thing be as they are for now. let go. surrender. see equality
- "and now? what now? what should I do? > Remember and Offer? Remember the Divine and all you do will be an expression of the Divine? Whenever we have any difficulties remember we are here exclusively to accomplish the Divine's Will? Aspire. Turn towards the Divine, all your sufferings will disappear./tm
- "I could imagine why people wouldnt want to be aware of the dark parts of themselves
- as if being offended is like protecting themselves maybe
- rejecting a truth of themselves or hiding from it
- and thats why I love comedy :heart:
- putting glitter on that shit and smearing it in peoples faces."
- "to my suffering, pain, difficulties, anxiety, troubles, struggles, frustration, impatience, overwhelm and to my thoughts of suicide I say: Thank you Mother Kali. Make me strong, make me free. Make me a suitable husb and for thee; able to endure your hottest fire. If God calls me to heaven and yet holds me down with one hand, still I must climb. [right attitude?]
- "how to deal with irritation? disgust? > peace? equality? whence shall he have grief who sees everywhere oneness? has potentially something to do with desire, physical incapacity and wanting things to be other then what they are, probably relates to a lack of surrender. like if this be your will God, then may i accept it. patience. let thing be as they are for now. let go. surrender.
- "solution to thoughts of suicide or feelings of hopelessness? > a lack of trust? all can be done if the god-touch is there? with the Divine all obstacles can be overcome? Find this Presence and all your difficulties will disappear? Think always of the Divine and the Divine will always be with you. Victory goes to the most enduring, Plastic and passive to the all-shaping Fire > sa / tm
- "Any activity that seeks or expresses the divine is a rightful action, this gives a sense of moving forward of progress, though it may not be knowledge of the end goal, this may be more practical in many senses, if the action is a offering then that will enrich the activity no matter what it is. Aurobindo speaks of some that are closer or farther away to the divine flame. If you want to know the perfectly right next thing.. does it exist, can it be known, can it be known now? what is the affect of seeking to know such thing? is it desire based or soul based? see possible steps or possible actions
- "Victory goes to the most enduring and it is the psychic being, the immortal soul in man, who guiding the nature from life to life through the cosmic winds of Time and Change, is capable of bearing the increasingly heavy Infinite load. It does this, a spark of the Divine, silently from behind, until the nature more and more turns towards the Eternal. No longer finding satisfaction and allurement in movements of the lower Nature, it then slowly comes to the surface, guiding the being towards perfection and God. Bringing with its sweet presence the treasures, that make worthwhile, its decision to begin its adventure of consciousness, the Absolute's pre-cosmic decision to become in Time, to give Form to the Formless. For despite our difficulties and our sufferings, eventually we will arrive. God has a debt to pay to Man, to Nature, to Himself who took on the burden of becoming. Who growing out of the Void, the Abyss, the Inconscient took innumerable forms as it developed through Ignorance and Error towards the Truth, the Light, the Knowledge and the Bliss., Praise be$"
- sin begets sin
the measure of the achievement
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