Index, bigindex

select ::: Being, God, injunctions, media, place, powers, subjects,
favorite ::: cwsa, everyday, grade, mcw, memcards_(table), project, project_0001, Savitri_(cento), Savitri_(extended_toc), the_Temple_of_Sages, three_js, whiteboard,
temp ::: consecration, experiments, knowledge, meditation, psychometrics, remember, responsibility, temp, the_Bad, the_God_object, the_Good, the_most_important, the_Ring, the_source_of_inspirations, the_Stack, the_Tarot, the_Word, top_priority, whiteboard,

classes ::: book, chapter, Austin_Osman_Spare,
children :::
branches :::

Instances, Classes, See Also, Object in Names
Definitions, . Quotes . - . Chapters .

object:The Logomachy of Zos
author class:Austin Osman Spare

By Austin Osman Spare

Wisdom is a stasis: Knowledge is like the 'snake of eternity', constantly
eating itself and never finishing.
More bathos: connexity of all our bloody selves to Ego is a nightmare
commanded by the overlooked, unobeyed latencies of return, essential
for re-union.
Ego expands by that which evokes mutual effluxes; therefore look for the
Theocentric in the Egocentric.
If God personalizes our deficiencies, then, we thus personify his?
Subject understanding object by 'as if' may become, with courage, an
ingressive emotional experience giving mutual expression.
Falsehood, and all sham conceits, are the reflected memory of the derelated and forgotten event resurging, re-exhibiting for validation; for
whatever you pretend, holds a misplaced Truth, i.e., inaccurately related
time and place. This also is true of the future. Time here is long...
Of whom do we ask forgiveness when we hate ourselves?
Our urges are ever ubiquitous, affinities change, and Knowledge becomes
Never too old to learn, always too old to be taught.
If all realization is by our relatability to different co-existences, then
making the more variable is one purpose of being.
The Life-force and the Ids have their logic, which does not preclude our
having our own diversity of will. There is virtue in all non-conformity
because it makes new forms.
Ecstasy is our out-span touching Reality. It is a potent generative instant
having a surplus that, when synchronized, may be used abstractly to
incarnate another wish.

There is honesty of purpose in virility.
We are ever ultimate and all ultimates ultimately sublimate in Auto-Ego.
I ask, what is conceivable when we cannot conceive even what we are
The mocking Ape, the smiling God, both beckon and will endow.
Thrice did I slip backwards into strange forms of myself, and thrice did
my Soul save me.
Much is realized that seldom can be expressed and when it might be
Mind, body, ego and all things are formulated from desire; to desire
Within the Alphabet lies all the arbitrary abracadabra of our knowledge.
The dominant difference between each of us, and between all of us and

arbitrary. Outstanding ability shows affective psychic union.
Art alone having the gift of tongues has universal understanding, hence
to know its fundaments is the initial path to Wisdom and Knowledge.
However great your reach, whatever you touch, shall touch flesh.
We cannot love love too much when we find it.
There is a self-revelation by a simple cryptic symbol: the meaning of all
meanings. Think well before you drain this Cup of intoxicating
When our aspirations become as inexorable as affection, the mind will
divulge techniques and media.
Heaven makes no moral laws, but gives us instincts towards rightness
and virtue.
The danger of the dynamic mind is that it seeks all kinds and degrees of
complexity: fundamentals are a lost purpose in this forest of detail.
Let us desire no better pantheon than the zoomorphic in which to find a

place: better to venerate our animal ancestry (until fully human), then
the least attainable and most unknowable will disclose our next step.
However incompatible discoveries may be they always conform to the
processes of ultimate inductions from our inherent designing ability.
The mind has no known purpose except that which it surmises from
previous conations; all our motives are thus related processes springing
from a basic urge deep within us and manifesting as Self-love.
Thinking is an inverse reflection of emotional needs, its resultants being
changed by some other immediacy.
Abortive and extreme metamorphoses occur when Man slips into
excessive evil or good. There is that theurgy in Will when all desires focus
into one meanness or greatness.
Reversion is often the road to perversion, and the disused or abused
degenerates unless transposed to another purpose.
Love shall cease when copulation is abjured.
Things more excellent than themselves are expressed through Art when
our selves are expressed in them.
The artist illumines unseen beauties and awakens us to the utility of
beauty as pleasure of a more permanent kind.
We conceive from the whole until detail destroys.
To know the fundaments of Art is to know the path of all wisdom.
What does not exist Man will invent or imagine.
Much is realized and so seldom expressed that when it might be told it is
already forgotten.
The self-glory of our forgiveness of ourselves and others-these are our
Emotional depth can bestow originality of expression.
We find in Art experiences missed in life.
Art is the coinage whereby we exchange emotional experience for creative

All artistic creation is subjective truth in that it relates to lesser known
Insincerity is an easy form of escape.
One function of Art is to make something more like or unlike itself than it
Of beauty there is no finality; it confirms our inner sense of perfection
which changes less than we do.
Over-modesty permits the unworthy to seek our company.
Vicious circle: Fear as the offspring of fearing to face things.
Our near relatives are the greatest insurance against belief in ourselves.
When Art is wanting the beast is superior.
The one constancy in life is change, yet the becoming or going is seldom
Birth and death begin, like everything else, before the event.
God is often a generalization of our ignorance and unfulfilment, as "God
knows" and "In +
-we forget that we are the Knowledge of
God and his good time.
Anything is justified if superbly simulated; it becomes believable.
The body is so pregnant with beauty that we should be careful of our
One thought fills vacuity, two would become actuality and infinite
Passion has no longevity whatever its object, and has direful awakening.


Only the inspired mind is licensed to symbolize and so co-relate the
abstract to the particular or general.
Again and again this "I am God" doctrine has never provided much
evidence, except of power lent for purposes other than our own. It soon

stinks, translating into its reverse form; our exteriorizations and




as inferior, they always see themselves as immense.
Man cannot be surpassed until he manifests all his suppressions. Having
fulfilled all evil he still possesses great potentialities.

A fact is a figment of a truism, therefore all facts are inconclusive.
Fictions are devices to explain the indefinables; our whole systematic
coherence is so forged.
I am incessantly active on a wonderful job-of finding out what I am
doing, and what it means. I can always read into it something other than
I did mean; never the meaning of my meaning, or the whole meaning.
Then we wonder whether anything has any more meaning than anything
How do we know any damned thing? Chaos is our language; our own
eccentric rhythms are unsynchronized to Cosmos-with a mildewed ear
for the brassy cacophony of imaginary menageries dissonant to each
other; and it all ends drooling over minutiae to discover oneself.
Our acceptances are our conclusions.

to rationalize, except in cases of our own prejudices which inform our
If all phenomena are a fluxing unabsoluteness and are Absoluteness
manifest, then is it surprising that we manufacture our ego that is
neither-either but a weirder autism? Yet none remember having desired
J but indisputably we have Ego, the only certainty we know. I

Within the sensorium is a transcriber, or a synthesizing faculty, using
synonymous intangibles where association and experience fail: as the
capacity of certain sounds to induce colour images, certain arabesque
forms may find aesthetic truth.
All psychoses etc., have their origin in normality, they are not inherent
but acquired; indeed at one stage, madness itself is a resolute choice-
preferred. When we turn over the obverse of reality we must accept the
reverse: autism may be just as satisfying as reality, because it has

greater psycho-somatic parallelism. It becomes a faculty- a circularity:

one form of genius.

Life loveth life as adventitious.
There is more truth in our erotic zones, than in the whole of religions and
Truth is emergent and levels our necessities of direction (general or
specialized). The function of truth is coherence, it indirectly forms our
beliefs and values. We are all specimens of self-evident truth, i.e. audient
and endemic as the intermediacy of pure Ego (informing agent) and
empirical Ego (conative), conscience being the nexus (emotional value):
all Knowledge is of one thing through another.
Within us all, and ever co-essential, is a prescient unknown informer
who tones all experience as good and evil: therefore, whatever values or
beliefs we hold, to transgress them is fatal.
Any fact or fiction has no difficulty in finding relatables as supporting

reality when instantly and simultaneous to time and place. Our difficulty

is to re-belief,
religion or faith) as substitute of real belief (which needs no other reality
than its own: what you cannot conceive as yourself is yourself (as
another reality).
Abstract or concrete: if you suggest a wish to the thing you desire of, in
their own manner, there will be a response: So, if I ask my mind in an
I shall receive a
true answer, although I may not be able to translate it: semantics are
either remiss or insufficient to render the sequence of phonographs, but
(without understanding) I would receive an emotional impact, like from a
significant passage of music (of Bach or Mozart) thus inspire a kind of
semantic rendering. (as true as possible)
If we seek escape from reality, then everything we do, will be as by proxy:
There are more bogey men than real men.


our latencies.
To realize of belief i


outside ourselves: For nothing you can conceive will be beyond self: To
see nullity- look within. We imagine our thinking & reasoning is within,
whereas it only manifests through the body (the expressional means).
Hate in its various forms is the strongest emotion, far more potent and
far easier to evoke than any other. Hence there are more people
to make the world worse than better. Until man re-assesses

-defeating and pre-determined, his future will be a baleful
We are not individuated so much by our material composition as by our
purposeful functioning to redirect the Ids, to channel them by arbitrary
means, as though self-willed.
We are all self-constructed Egos and necessarily concentric; whether
altruistic or not is as may be.
O, Death, thou wouldst be the bringer of great gifts wert thou not a

In some manner do all the weary speak.
If the Absolute relates to non-absolutes and all antitheses, then we lack
-relatability and self-identity.
Being unnecessary to ourselves (as others), entails everyone becoming
necessary for our survival.
When the denial of a proposition is incapable of being conceived, then
the proposition is to be accepted as necessary or true: when you find
such a proposition, there will be no necessity for it.
God is absolutely my own Idea: otherwise God cannot exist.
The greater the contrasts we encounter the greater our reality: Truth is
all contrasting.
(Our) fictions constantly interacting create a co-essential supposition,

seek blood, joi
to, or better than, a stale reality.
Our imaginary excesses are the hylic of possibility.
If you act with ulterior motive or for evil, a thousand unseen hands will
assist you, indeed the devil himself will attend if guised as altruistic. But
if you act anonymously and virtuously, only God will help you (which is



of borrowed precepts or simulations, as living an inexperience. Belief
must be vital, livable, and as unquestioned as our blood-circulation or

Some things are far distant in time and space; we journey by relatability
(whether fictional or non-fictional, either will serve).

dress, of masquerading, is true translatable
symbolism: one fiction guising another.
There are conventions of asking, giving, receiving and taking. How remiss
we are- we often ask, give to, receive or take from the wrong people.
We are dimensionally caged but nothing prevents our looking through
the bars- imagination has fewer bars than reasoning.
Thought is like the Ether, it conveys and permeates all things, giving all
we initially know. And what do we give in return?
Morality is a reciprocal discipline necessary to survival, and to protect
the inexperienced from consequences unnecessary or unequal to
The jungle law is superior to ours, but then man makes his laws.
All pleasures eventually equalize; their difference is of duration and
degree. When certain pleasures are constant we naturally strive for their


spatial- I know nothing better- so why should I disavow or transfer to
I am loving God via a fat arse. All true
appreciation of the abstract is through other things. Better this, than
acquiesce by faith in non-inferentials. Actuality, like belief, is asserted by
feeling. So the Soul loveth all who loveth him through those things he
maketh: he who appreciates my work...

there is this qualification- there is very little good portraiture, there is no
quaquaversum of truth, only quasiness.
Poetry is accomplished hyperbole.
Anomalies of language are numerous but some used here to further a
more logical form and show the purpose of my own system: a personal

form of articulating abstracts for psycho-somatic changes and
communication of Mind and Ego. The ethos of language should be

ambiguous syntax possible.
All symbols, as words, are configurated meanings. Any series of such
meanings as a sentence should be short, a natural apophthegm.
I prefer fat


who, if knowing me would add: sensual, amiable, beautiful, cultured;
others, without knowing me, might mentally add some such as a
generality applicable to most. Nothing of which is in the sentence. So,
however simple a statement (apart from the stupid) more will be read into
it than is expressed, the by-product being- as writing- the possible
assumptions of others as though implicit, when not so, and our
assumption that they will understand our meaning however clumsy or
inexplicably stated. All of which is useless for response from our own
mind: Any partitive statement will formulate itself (as complete) from
others assertions as conviction. Only our convictions as self-truths are
responsive from Ego to mind. T

-truths, but if I believe as
substractive then intercommunion is possible, for instance as self-truth:

I believe
in myself unquestionably, therefore I believe all things. Therefore if I

with all essential qualifications, thus:
and answered by the mind, whereas the verbal rendering would be futile.

Another predicament of verbal forms, e.g., if I

son known to us both) it would be understood that I
implied only physically (as their moral, social and mental value was
remiss). Here the designated subject speaks more than the words used.
Hence the same sentence to another (not knowing the person) leaves
them guessing as to true reference: They would have to apply, as
meaning as of general worth (or Ideal). Therefore, interpretation of words
depends mainly on equal knowledge of subject and some values of
Every foetus has (an exterior) prescience as to destination from which,
concurrently, is developed its own perception by experience: personal ego
ex universal Ego. Hence our fore-knowledge is an abstract ominous
How Fate steals the things we love best! Hymen is poxed, the odalisques
survive in pathetic stews, man stinks: how did it occur? Greed is the

infectious disease.
The only attribute of God is Man (or vice versa).
Some phantasms are a species of object impressionistically perceived and
amalgamated with another, more rational, impression.


Man believes by heterothough what he mainly believes are similitudes of past experience.

A fictions is unattributable to anything known and nothing is known for
All conation is synthetic derivation, our best- that little difference.
When enthusiasm and effort are co-equal and joined in purpose-
realization is near, whatever its merit.
Life does not decrease but increases by fulfilment. We were generated
and do ourselves generate. Whether we shall ever originate is locked up
in our unknown future potentialities and not in our nominalism and

hyperbole; we but change our mental clothes by new figures of speech.
The mind is our index of the infinite exhibiting a universe of which we
know little; yet the unknowable within us is vaster and hence more
potent of possibility.
We have erected the negation of equity into a form of existence by
systems of government: our birthrights
are stolen at birth and to keep us
empty-handed we are taught- T
Look into your past to forecast your future.
Is it short-sighted to limit our beliefs when we do not know our ultimate
possibilities? Yet all expression is within the limits of definite technique
and formalism- whatever our attempts at diversity.
What do we know for certain? In the complexity of differences we become
endowed with pretence and dogmatize our lies.
The mystery of beauty, the undivulged of things, gives them their
enchantment not their known meanings.
There is a Third Eye! To paraphrase "let not thy right eye see what they


our willful blindness to all permitted self-deceptions which are seen and
recorded by the inner eye. You may delude your fore-consciousness, but
not what is beneath.
...And of the noumenal, our eternity, we hope that all our efforts in life
are ultimately for a permanent perfection, with change an additional
pleasure. Everything, knowledge and experience of life contradicts such a
Is the Truth necessary? The need is for our own Truth: lack of integrity
makes for sterility and is meaningless. Things more necessary than
Truth are expressed through our efforts to render such.
An infliction of old age is the indictment of all ages; be certain that your
non-successes, accidents, and all illnesses however slight, will be the
result of your agedness.
There are no conclusive conclusions, yet nothing germinates unless we

-desireimage of our ambition.
The eclectic path is not an avoidance of obstacles, but an alignment
(often oblique) that cuts through from one predetermined place to

God is within us?-
inexistent reality of presence without residence.
Ideas you conceive are their own possibility.


The great sterilities: the numen and the human- ever present- are
stercoraceous images of greed under other names.

eternity: the outwardness of ego is the recessive and remaining part of
Through mind is our all-reachingness, and through the copula; our
technique of articulating desire is limited, bad or mad.
Soul and mind are indifferent to our language but respond to
affectiveness when conveying pure sentiment.
Where Ego goeth, there only is the sensation and perception of reality.



workings of equity from our own past Karma.
We make words ambiguous by adding our meaning; qualifications
become endless and few understand themselves or each other.
Whatever you assert of the gods is more true of yourself.
All ways to Heaven lead to flesh. Our re-orientation and ascent from
Earth must start here: nothing is obtained except by desire and our only
medium is flesh- mouth and hand. In the midst of reality we strive for
unreality, hence I teach the equal reality of all things, man and his
illusions- flesh of dreams... There is a lamentable display of the nonartists shadow-fighting their fears; automata actuated by their own
committed untruths seeking their fulfilment.
Truth is everywhere, there is nothing untrue anywhere; it may appear so,
because we cannot accurately relate it.
I behold multiplicity in all things and myself as the inter-relating
oneness, for whatsoever else I
The more I get into things the more I am beyond them, so, the more
within, the more without...
I am everywhere present, yet unknown to myself except in Ego. I am a
configuration of all the multitudinous compositions, and knowing not
myself fully how can I know much of other selves and the gods? But the

is a function of the all-remembering Soul: so believe from your
necessities, which alone obtain response and recompense- whether of
good or evil.
Nightmare: how dreadful is this place; is it some religious hereafter?

which sprang order by separateness and every inequality, with the
supreme attainment of individuality and ego.

Wisdom is the realisation of the mysterious incomprehensibility of all
things, whoever the designer; and all the partial disclosures of knowledge
prove this.
If I was begotten of all yesterdays then Ego (made of my memories
become flesh) is my only lamp for the tomorrows.

My gods have grown with me.
The secret of happiness is to be in harmony with yourself; little more is
permitted or desirable. Seek your environment and adapt it: do not ask

- I know only vaguely what I have made from Self
into myself.
If others loved themselves half as much as I do, there would be no wars.
Everything would seem less dangerous than Reality, for everyone would
escape or unrender it.
Vitality of idea, vitality of form and balance of composition- these are the
essentials of the masters who make their truths live.
When you are bored it is evidence of disease- you are going blind, deaf,
or are paralyzed, etc.
Friendship is only the refraction of a desire for a fuller self. Until I am
God in myself, I am nothing to God.
We are much worse in prospect than in retrospect.
Passion is purchased by passion. Those of small desires will only bleed
you and make you as necessitous as themselves.
When we exploit the extent of solitude we find it more crowded than a
great company and the abode of our own realities. There is no retirement
from solitude, and, when we fear it, conscience is actively malignant.
Only dominant desire shall compel us to do what we want to do
Nature is an integrating principle, never compelling uniformity.
I do know, not only that I know but also what little I know of my own
I dreamed the psychic world was a concurrent inverse devolution; man,
failing as human, reincarnates as a caricature of the beast.
The price of Identity is suffering.

present behaviour is too bloody for words.

Space is the limit of
K probabilities; Time, of the immediately possible. Lies

live. Whatever lie you state could be true- at one time, at another time,
but not at this time and place. We must first create a suitable

others; when so, we are at our best.
Words, words, words, however used, whatever they symbolize, request, or
tell, say more, showing in between the antics of all motives. Yes, wordrendering deals the quickest of deaths to flabby ideas; and also words are
the most poignant, suggestive, contagious, substitutive and lasting
means to convey anything. Most deadly virus, most potent abreaction of
magic subtlety even your erasures reveal your believing by their
persuasive influence and their magic.
If a wish formulates its meaning from a parallel likeness, it will have a
substantive exegesis.
The giver who gives desiring no requital is without fault: the receiver has
a moral onus as the contra-givee; there is ultimate equitable recompense
in all things.
The 'Summum bonum' of evaluation is equitable compensation or

compromise between differentiations; ou

All psycho-traumas relate to the subconscious and change us from the
instinctive to the deliberate.
If we see a thing and feel nothing the result is almost nullity, just as if we
touch something and visualize nothing. Emotive sensation is our highest
process and function.
Sincerity is difficult except through lasting affections, being unstable in
adaptation and tending to dysteleology. Sincerity is the quintessence of

formulates our temperament, individuality, and character.

infinitely interrelated and our re-relatability is our only form of reality,
though it is always a temporary union.
Longevity and youthful appearance are bound up with infantilisms, with
its own group of habitualized fixations, phobias and inhibitions.

The common stench- self-righteousness.

Mathematical alignme
being a segment of an undetermined and extensive arch.

Forms obtain additives by dimensional differentia and orientations of
objects perceived.
The quintessence of monotony: all things alike and equal.


Nature teaches equal significance of all things: the blade of grass, the
dead God or a live sow, all are of the same earthly worth. Of supernal
value is your service of remaking self in unlikenesses of yourself.
The unjustly injured are not benefited if the same injury is inflicted on
the aggressor: punishment should not only be corrective but
compensatory to the victim. This does not preclude other kinds of
deterrents if necessary.
If you must murder, seek the murderers; meet evil with evil, even unto
Ego: a contra-reflective symbol of the noumenal becoming fertile from our
own inexhaustible refractibility. Ego is a power of conjunctivity, a

noumenal, functionally divergent from the
original: a fluxing allequivalents becoming directive by disparities.
Autists as artists validate their wishes by conative effort, proving their
concepts as the pre-determining force of possibility and metamorphosis.
is an endless re-creation. Whatever we are, our value is in the next

Whether we are inspired by the Gods or by any other means, it is all the
same: we are as They, and much as they are to us.
"No law but mine", no fool has ever succeeded in maintaining.
Thought is an impression subsequent to feeling, prior to which it has no

All equations are an assumption: an averaging of variant inequalities
from inexactitudes as an approximate- remiss always.
Time-space is an empirical relativism deriving from our manifold of
incomplete and unsynthesized representations seeking nexity. The
unrelated has neither time, space, nor ego.
We cannot guess our purpose, and never surpass it, but it is imperative
that we believe in one for it confers ability.
There is no balance without equal tension or reciprocal compensation.
We are as shadows of our doubts, delusion-reared, haunted by hopes
and fears, cramped in some corner we imagine real and secure... And
pray to God, intent to prey.
The incredible may follow the possible, because none can assess what
may become true or what is impossible. When we speak of the impossible
or the inconceivable we really mean something that is impossible
immediately, that that moment of time cannot find relationship with the
We best serve ourselves by serving others the necessity of themselves;
our defaulting is bathos and bloody.
Everything is manifest, the fault is our inability to apprehend from our
level. Knowledge is slowly gained from experience and appearances,
explaining the less known by the known by the faculty of reasoning.
Whoever exploits the less probable as possible is a fine artist.
How can you be dynamic with small beliefs and small desires?
Whoever we are, the borrowed pretensions are our defect- always less
worthy than our own Truth, unnecessary and futile. By them we are
unfitted to be sincere; it endangers what good we have: this mediocracy
lives only its inferiorities.
Chastity may be a safeguard, never an excitement or adventure. But do
not pride yourself, for fall you must.
Death is necessary for forgiveness...
Rightly man is screened from much of himself- he already hates too

The wrong motive underlies our righteousness and faulting others
becomes our meat.
Old age is our best advertisement, for it has sucked the poison of most
things and survived.
The beliefs we make are the best for us, whatever their truth. Any belief
is sanctified by the believing, and justified by results.
The best in me may be the worst in you, or vice versa.
If death is our reformation it is also a long term of forgetfulness; when
reborn we seldom know who we were before.
Inspiration is our only fortuitous gift from the Soul.
The sexually devitalized have necessity only with death.
When I feel nature, I feel that truth is immanent- in the vastnesses, the
vistas, where my Soul dwells. There is nothing ashamed, meretricious or
facetious. Facing this majesty I feel ashamed of my false shame and

Go wherever you have seminal affinities: so sayeth Satyros.
The Soul has no language, level and values, except its own, but it
answers to all true affectiveness.
To become oblique is one answer: but our minds have heaped up clichs,
coined, borrowed or inherited, mostly spurious. So stultified- not by
limits of language, or by dumbness- we fail through falsities and halfbelieving, by fears bred of cramped growth, obedience to uninspired
patterning, and we lose our impassioned creativeness by accepting easy
conventions, idioms, and shoddy imitations.
We hate and love ourselves only through others. Heaven save us from
looking only for our own likenesses.
Life is a potency, becoming a selection of indulgences; a path through the
chaos we make- how soon fearing. Shocked, we cry out for salvation,
and backslide to some old mothering or protectiveness. No escape but to
breathe the human smell, touch the hirsute flesh: shall again
adventure... must transgress.
Compensating mechanisms often demand an antithesis to balance or
fulfil them, as with character and temperament: an ideal union- the

masculine woman and the effeminate man.
Equity is the stabilizer of eternity.

authority to shelve his own responsibility.
Unappreciated ability becomes devitalized, breeds a self-indulgent
sickness- a self pity that suffers alone.



It is in all
things and all things will be through it. All emanations are through the
flesh and nothing has reality for us without it. The Soul is ever
unknowable because we can only realize by finite form in Time-Space.
So, whatever you attribute to the inconceivable is your Ego, as conceived.
The mind and its great thought-stream determines everything and
permits all things conceivable as possible. This thought-stream refracts
illations both from the Soul and from ourselves into our time-sense-
images and symbols which inspire us from the inter-relatabilities, and
our reactions form our future destiny of good and evil with thought the
nexus to all things past and becoming. Whether the gods created us or
we created them is of no import except as an expedient.

If I
pre-ordained channels, amoral, endowed with phallic grandiosity and let
loose among excitements, I would end in hysteria unto paralysis: there is
a law of reversal.
Giving our so-

of Eternity and our
comprehension is begotten of Time. Your virtue is to believe in yourself
as your self, i.e., as an individual making your individuality: Cogito, ergo
Vital belief overcomes all things, in that it will endow us with the means
to do so.
Time is not a separate dimension but a purely human and arbitrary
contrivance of measurement by comparison; yet time is integrated in us
and all things as our spaciousness and our essential way of realizing and

When all permutations and combinations of Form have obtained, will
dimension cease? Will the last imminence become, and Time enter

Sacrifice is the first duty of self-love.
Our purpose and completeness fully to realize Self is in our existence for
others, but the hand of weakness leads us to evil.
The disaster of love is that it gives us occasion to love in one person what
we should love in all.
The discarding of inhibiting beliefs by reorientation and substitution
gives a selected level adjustable to the new Idea, and becomes the matrix
for obsession. The tight packing of space and the involuntary enforced
silence are premonitions of pregnancy from this act.
The deliberate delayed satisfaction of an urge, when serving another
intent, is of greater benefit to the person concerned than its immediate
satisfaction. Urges serving their immediacy are often a failure, a
disservice resulting in degenerate offspring.
...And remember, you shall suffer all things and again suffer: until you
have sufficient sufferance to accept all things.
A thing only has reality and meaning when it has affinities and
associations, however implicit.
I believe in the power of belief.
Nothing is more costly than principles: because their maintenance
depends on ourselves.
Day-dreams are our cheapest luxuries.
Whatever our avowal we never worship the same god for long- desires
With little evidence we form meanings and judgments and dogmatize that
our propositions are considered opinion against all immediate
experience. Thoughtless assertions or anxious expressionism are too
frequent and none perceives the full meaning or implication of partitive
statements or generalizations. Most conclusions are mere sentences that
need endless qualification.
Arrestment sets limits that are more prolific of exploration than unstable
wandering; there is need of a period of unlearning, of de-indoctrination,
of de-mathematicalization, of transvaluating, of fresh levels and

directions, a new category of definitions and meanings for possible and
probable Ideals.
Ideas issue from the impact of strong contrasts and urge our search for
new sensations. Without negations reality would become anemic and
I know too many gods... yet the greatest stranger to me is myself. And
those who speak so glibly and knowingly of God (alleged Absolute), who
know his ways, wills, desires, etc., are committed to their inferiority.g The


they imagine that God needs the endowment of human attributes is a

mystery as profound as their ignorance-
desires to impersonate us and thereby, quid pro quo, permit us to
impersonate him? And so we make an adaptable God, one to barter
with... defraud. This stuff, this moon -wrack, well suits the human

equation. I
- the old
looking-glass self-nomination: so we ever create. Still, we must become
designers and cast this strange coinage; whether spurious or of merit it
has a value for sure. Whatever our designs, they are derivative and
unbeknowningly follow some dicta of the gods: exchangeable by artistic
This is a world of re-living, re-believing, re-valuing, surviving all
infirmities to remake and reform. And this furor about reality, whether it
exists in us or elsewhere- we have become so confused and confounded
by deceptions of logic and nonsense that we do not know even which
reality we mean. But, whatever we may mean or imply we cannot
misrepresent anything of which we know nothing.
How do we know anything? Who told us and where does it come from? Is
it a recollection, a re-appearance from latent memory? Our mind interrelates us as it so wills, from any instant to some early becoming or yet
further back, so that we may re-join, relate and re-experience, add to our
Wisdom works from the subconsciousness; we have all experienced

new conception from our own orientation.
The Absolute is unbecoming and sterile if unbelieved. What is Truth?
This question implies colour-blindness; it is asked rather as if Truth were
an unrelated fact, thing, or abstract, the reason being that we do not
conceive of it as multiple, varied, universal, or complex, but always as
abstract. For there are many kinds of truth and all our truths are arrived
at through negatives- what has no beginning has no becoming; what is

without form has no meaning. Truth is of all things past, actual and
potential in the conceptive- therefore Truth is relative. What is true for
me may not be so for you, and what is true now may not be so later, or at

environment, character, temperament, learning, etc. Truth is also born of
our known and latent beliefs so that to the insincere truth is baffling.
may be induced by the obsessive, by faith, or by something


I assert that
all lies are true when accurately
and may

the instant, already in yesterday, so never is. All reality, all life, all truths
are of yesterday, and tomorrow is the beginning of another yesterday and

I am sick of all categories, nominalism
and all bloody science- so enough of Truth, and, like Pontius Pilate I
wash my hands of it. Too much truth in me already...
For I am I: ergo, the truth of myself; my own sphinx, conflict, chaos,
vortex- asymmetric to all rhythms, oblique to all paths. I am the prism
between black and white: mine own unison in duality.
Look into your past to forecast your future. It is short-sighted to limit our
beliefs when we do not know our ultimate possibilities. Yet all expression
is within the limits of definite techniques, media, and formalism,
whatever our attempts at diversity.
Our greatest thoughts and conations are automatic in origin: the deep
pervading significance would appear to be a dissolving omniscience-
increative by excreation- as the sun ever unsolicitous, ever giving, ever
living: for whatever it taketh it giveth back manifold.
Ego is the reflector of the mind and through us Nature weaves diversity
of herself. Her limitless knowledge is at the command of all our Ideas,
whether ideal or decadent.
The inexplicable of beauty, the undivulged of things- not their known
meanings- gives them their enchantment.
Insight expresses things by symbols and is a pure manner of relating-
seeing: the way of some things can be known only by silent graphs-
interlocking forms pregnant with meaning.
Existence is fated: the expiation of our past; good and evil rewarded by
their aftermath. Avowal of faith has no worth except by the voluntary

reshape our future: Fate.

Whether within or without, nothing is explicit. Nature reveals slowly her
techniques and media: her meanings and motives we know nothing of,
and guess only from our own desires.
value of the Artist lies in his awareness that anything has its beauty
fantastic; transforming all falsehood into a truth.
To see ourselves with our eyes open, that is the problem, and to explore
our ultimate participations now embedded deeply in layer upon layer of
extraneousness: nothing is beyond recall.
Inevitably, Life and Death nourish each other- a constant renovation- so
why should we fear our again becoming the worth we did strive after?
Words and their meanings cannot change much; their sounds are
constant of a hidden content not related to our meanings.
The spurious, embellished by cheap finery is the furniture of the pedant

mind and, I
You would save yourselves? My advice is- Keep away from each other,
and so keep away from your worst self: our attributes are always bad.
An accomplishment is affectionate longevity: great Art gives... and the
finest minds untiringly respond.
Nature is the one tradition that precludes criticism.
Destiny uses strange disguises: the causes of great change appear
always superficial or promiscuous.
If we appreciated only what we know as true, there would be nothing to
Our deepest feelings are oft enwrapped in the worst sentiment or taste.
Be careful what you cast out- the vacancy is quickly filled.
Do I believe in myself? Look around! Could I be so inconceivably
Memories resurrected from our sublated selves filled with their
experiences are never-ending: Knowledge has a time-lag.

By our spunklessness we suffer, and half-feature and half-form our
desires into abortiveness.
The road, for you, is always devious and dangerous.
We often kill ourselves by self-poisoning: Fate follows swiftly our
adopting things foreign to our inherent aesthetic values.
The dilemma facing those who search for the Unknown (Self and Truth)
is that they will never know when they have found it.
Having succeeded to life awhile- something we apparently never
desired- must we have the added obligation of thanksgiving?
You cannot obtain anything from yourself, only through yourself.

sults from the unification of Will, Desire and Belief forced
into one thing. By this affectiveness the Soul draws near and casts its
omniscience over us by inspiration. None knoweth the purpose of life
outside Ego... I am content with an effort to be human, with firm belief in

Superman has passed; the unquiet catafalques are ruins of the classic
splendour which no human vandalism could quite destroy. Their
tradition survives. They too resurrect- their deputies step forth as
giantesque ghosts and re-live in great artists with the Promethean fire to
regerminate afresh. As representative: Michaelangelo, Rabelais, Voltaire,
Balzac, Cervantes, Shakespeare, Swift, Darwin etc.
We who seek- whether we know or not what we seek or find, seem forced
to face divergent paths; and ever inviting is the non-resistant blind alley
to all sameness, to sick and weary life. Other paths, rougher, lead who so
willeth to new pleasures: verily they lead the life-force with ever-open eye
to the awaiting disaster or to chaos- never bathos, self-pity. The brave
care nothing.
O ye Gods, say ye nothing? My nightmare told me ye say all things- or
my translation is faulty?
Efforts to surpass realism: this poor energy runs weed-like to
absurdities, and plethoric unrealism shoves out the vital, the simple.

Here, selfeffloresce a new surrealism.

Could we but smell! A finger beckons- the ruttish side-glance; we
lurchingly detour to grasp the painted hussy. All fishy suspicions fade:
then we awaken- wedlocked to sickly evil...
Give up, give up, stuttereth cowardice: crawl another ceiling? Ride
another ass? So mocks my own tiredness. Awake, break the neck of your
bloody Id or ride him till he drops.
I am never less than I am, but through wrong susception.

Those who
sacrifice everything to one purpose- whether for good or evil- are
granted power and the formidable weapon of words.
The wise man often exuviates his knowledge, rectifies his pastiche of
acceptances and reverts to simple fundaments. By courage his eye is
never stale and his levels become as steps. He again reorientates by
oblique divagation, new asymmetries, dynamics, complexities and
funambulatory compositions; never destroying his essential dissymmetry.

There are egotists who-
- become
ruthlessly callous and vengeful or hysterically accuse you of their
failings: always upstarts to their failings.
Love for all things is integral beauty; it has no hate or possessiveness; its
law is its own causality. Passions may be controlled but we best love by
non-will as inclination dictates: so accept love wherever you may find it.
It is difficult to recognize because it never asks.
All our denials, even of ourselves, come from non-acceptance: the
unrealisation of otherness in self; of the Absolute in the non-absolute.
Contact with reality: the impact of flesh on flesh by every illogical means
is the only logical thing.
Our unsocial acts are paid for by our future deformities: redemption is by
our own blood.
Sex abreacted between two becomes seductive and consummation
should naturally follow.
Is it our misconception of Self which determines the evil will of man,
formulating a disastrous law to which he is ever subject?
"I desire" is all of life. Desires are born of necessity, by sincerity of belief

and striving for realization, yet always originating through the fictional
supposition from reality. Thus Man creates his conceptions from his
of a soul- from his wish for one, and he becomes his mental

as your creation, for Man already possessed a Soul and formed this other
from his suppositions, never disentangling the two. Thus Ego is twiceborn- hence our duality.
The Absolute appears to become other than itself, for it is sufficient; it is
is not,
nor is it beyond, nor in, nor of, me, or anything else: it is

If I say, "it alone is arbitrary", that would also be eristic,
and everything we may state mere supposition- for it "need not be". I call

To face armies- yea, even death: to enjoy the set place: to enkindle our
acquaintance as on a festive occasion: to welcome the other selves as
oneself- that my love should be. For when I face my soul I am as naked
as in death. Therefore, rejoice now in all thy coverage.

new Grand Style which fulfils itself by attaining a
non-ethical Ideal with the idealized Ugly as an aesthetic that has become
more creative than the gods.
Soul permitted Mind- the first form, and spatial. Imagination and
rhythm, the machinery of this higher basic harmony is- by our ecstasy-
contiguous because it is a flash of reality. All our transference is by the
harmony and imagination granted us.
The figures and forms of our less deliberate expressions become the
personifications of our abstract emotion- a sequence by the intensities of
our feeling.
Whatever we invite and accept of our thoughts must gather me into
metaphor by a known tautology revealing our lesser-known attitudes to
Character is the measurable result of modified or controlled desires.
Ability exhibits our affective psychic unions.
The conjugation of a priori and a posteriori crated the Anotic.
The way of Ego is by impact, then by recognition, action, emotional
relating, and ultimately the de-theosizing of our self-conception.
Am I all things? Are all things in me? All things become emanations of
Ego, but first I must forsake my parents and walk alone.

The Noumenal of things is unrelated truth, because when related
cognition becomes creaturely, un-universal, relative. An empty vase
holds space yet it is only a shape enveloping a measurement of space in
space. Truth manifests manifoldly and our own Truth manifests by
complex refraction, reverse-inverse always diverse, not as it is. Thus, our
conceptions are always partitive and our deviations project the
dimensions of our cognition. The ground of abstract human sentiment
and ability is from inherent atavisms generating a potential and
ultimating via an ideal.

The emotional
contact gave effusion which helped us to see interrelationships
everywhere and- the inducement to new likenesses in what would have
been unlikely.



Who mayJ know his complete
so much being hidden? The

mechanism and of the affectiveness of the whole; at its interrelations we
may only guess. Every fact gleaned shows us merely greater ignorance of
ourselves. Therefore, speak not of God, speak for yourself alone, for when
you know yourself you will know your gods.
The yeasty conceits of adolescence that flourish unchecked, unrealized
by merely wishing, linger on and become dramatically traumatic as
substitutions for reality- always a change transference of absurdities.
The uncommitted life becomes deeply committed to an ultimate
aftermath that will be compensatory (good or bad); all are caught in this
ironic paradox.
Nothing exists that is unnecessary; ergo, only those things shall and may
exist that we make necessary to ourselves- not in conformity to our

logical/moral standards but to our own valueA dissipating passion never leads to a worthwhile reality in
The only certainties are the great uncertainties of unremembered
commitments to

through dissatisfaction.

Speak not of the inconceivableness of God for I am this but am not a god.
Sensations are impacts from phases of outer energy, relevant or not but
mostly hurtful.



symbology. Even with great virtue of belief none can attain union with
Soul or Noumen for they are ever interlocked. Why begin with false
beliefs? Your unions are with your own ideas of them.
The first law was duality, determining by differentiated duplication; for
whatever is begotten is from a similarity. The chain of causation is a
sequence of entities becoming less and less similar and, eventually, a
unique diversion to the prototype and to each other.
The immemorial universal (refracted through mind and senses) becomes
personified as Ego which manifests more and more through the ever
increasing complexity of matter, as body-entity. T
Mind, Ego and Body, with their inexact duplications, baffle and bewilder
Ego is our soul becoming its own. Though now dependent, chained to
body, caged by dimensions, yet we are occasionally granted visual

ultimately independent.
Ego while adolescent is unstable, wayward, contradictory, appearing as
psychomachy and without theo-anthropic possibilities.
Mind gives function, determines, endows
and benefits Ego via the body,


appear parallel with mind but with body.


alternatives no more impossible than any other unrealized possibilities.
Forsooth, the impossible is everywhere: our attitude alone makes things
The great reservoir from which life derived by processes of evolution... so
first pulsed our conscious entity as Ego. It does
not return to its source,

independent, shall become its own jussive. Soul, Mind, Body, and all that
Ego shall rightly conceive, shall be increative. How do I know? Power is

sometimes lent: my desire was for Knowledge, then by lightning
coincidence I beheld the amazing vision of ultimate Ego. I know- tongue
tied I cannot retell; perhaps the hinge of connection must be your own
If events
are foretellable from the subconscious
(which I maintain) how

do I

To begin with, man is predestined by his good, evil and
past history, but within him is the potential for effort towards free will


I have this measure of freedom: I can choose the direction and
even delay the event- but go I must. It is obvious that those living a
virtuous life are rectifying their future and the possibility of freer will.
There is a form of aesthesis that is only explainable by the unison of all

feels: such a state allows of telaesthesia.
The coetaneous has a spatial spread, causing unknown concurrent
superfetations having their abstract after-births. So, man becomes fatally
committed not only to known but also to unknown commitments.
Nothing complete or completing; all existence a mighty ocean, ever
resurging, reindulging, and divulging little- wherein we are thrown to
grasp the straw of Ego as our raft to Eternity.
All thoughts are presupposed from other suppositions that have reality in
a differential of Reality: otherwise there would be an irreflexive
unalterable zero plus zero.
Belief prefers singularity yet must work through complex desire.

That is

Is not this appreciation a loose coital form?

We must compel possibility to accept us favourably if only in
imagination. Commit as many mental adulteries as you wish- it denotes
The failures in life become the manure in death.
The substratum of human cognition is an unknown inherent syllogism
creating our formalisms. The field of sentiment goes beyond, to the ideal
ultimate. Beyond again is the arbitrary-causal-archetypal, the abstract
span of conceivability with conation levelled to our ability.
The Mind divulges by the power of inexorable affections that become a

Sex is the only way of procreation, and our hylotheism changes the
matrix of our desire.
...These poor likenesses are of slavering fears and poor beliefs. Are they
the differentiated correlatives we make of ourselves for the great
innovation? No, they must come from the sweat of ecstasy.
This is your great moment of reality- the living flesh! These selffrightened saints who bleat "all is illusion"- offer fewer alternatives to
reality than half a wet dream. They expect too much without payment-
to reap without sowing, and by luck to forfeit debt, so they imagine, and
hope that death will be the end.
Know thyself: Such knowledge reveals little but the redundant. The
hidden and the unknown are affinities, ever ubiquitous and much
If mankind had mistrusted all teaching it would long ago have embraced
Dreams are a patchwork of hopes and fears seeking realization in
imaginative reality- often now the best conative.
Man is a potentiality of anything becoming actuality- the least and the
greatest. Seek thy way through that which is, into that which you desire
or think it should be, for the day of great mutation is always at hand- for
the chosen.
There is a supernal prolepsis given to those who sublimate their desire
towards beauty as final pragmatism.
There are many ultimates but all sublimate into Auto-Ego.

become its own laughing poltergeist...

Wisdom is a stasis, knowledge is ever-reforming, changing, never
What am I?
I am all I have remembered summarized as form, for I was once allness
and absolute.

What is Ego?
That which I have united emotively of my past to things.
What is the world of environment?
My past and future selves, seen and unseen.
What does it all mean?
Whatever I desire it to mean when necessary to me.
What is it all for?
Self-pleasure by infinite unities and equal separations, to retain
What is death?
A great mutation to my next self.
There is no Ultimate: everything becomes from what has gone before,
because of changing ultimates determined by our valuation of things.
Be certain, you will not experience what you do not desire unless it be
forced on you by your past evil.
Creation is an ever-expanding energy rather than a work completing;
infinite contraction is less conceivable but is co-relative. Space extends
with thought, time with Ego.
Nothing is anything unless fixed in the substantial; thus dreams and
abstracts are as concrete as anything else.
The character of a Form is determined by its featural content and
function. Good and evil must be felt before they have reality. There is no
conceivable benefit in emotions, considered abstractly, unless they
communicate some good to our being, and every being is in some way the
better for the emotions of others.
The likenesses and differences in things- their conjunctiveness

arguments convey their meaning by symbols and then inspire us to
interpret their greatness.
All Nature is a vast reflection of that which is within us, otherwise we

could not know it.
We are as we are until we extend to other needs. The mind drinks a
plethora of impressions, of vaguenesses, of things held in awe. The
incompatibilities, when forgotten and buried, shall re-awaken as a great
race to reach Unity in new-rhythmed patterns which later develop into a
cultivated process.
Instead of controlling us our inhibitions are often self-destructive- they
negate the creative act through fear to perform.
Talk your psycho-physical troubles out into the open but do nothing to
remove their cause- that would be too easy and might indict civilization.
There is no escape by escapism- a labour of forging more chains to
prevent suicide.
If I cannot believe in the eternity of Ego, whatever its fluctuations, in
what shall I believe?
There is no whole without our particular parts and our efforts to become
essential and more extensive.
Our positiveness convinces others who have little of it; suggestion being
more powerful to convey it than formal instructions.
None of us knows our limitations without full articulation; wrong
application, media, and idioms are more to blame than any lack of
We should solicit extensively to procreate our thought-forms: the final
phase- criticism, revision, rejection.
Mental activity is stimulated by sex-appeal, but passion is more easily
squandered than coagulated.
Many things grow revertive as they advance in time: we desire longevity
without its failings.
Know the spurious and ephemeral by these characteristics- laziness and
imitativeness. The failures will proclaim and embrace them, the
genuine- unheralded, overlooked- are wrongly assessed from the start.
If we could give a true history of ourselves it would be of our emotional
changes and evaluations, shaped into character by the conflict of
temperament, experience and environment.

Often we desire a truth but to maintain our errors. Sincerity lasts but
simulation needs constant revision.
Thought is a reflection and all ideas in thought are possible only from a
Constant self-reformation is essential for higher attitudes. When we
identify our desire with an object it is our nearest conception of reality.
Procreation is a more adequate realization than other relationships, so
reality is suffered only as fleeting and limited.
Our shortcomings of memory, plus imagination, produce factors which
tend to reveal symbolically more inwrought things.
It is not futile to strive for reality in the unsubstantiated things of mind
and, when fearless, it becomes great artistry.
Man is an infinite aptitude of possibility: apart from his media, necessity
is the limiting factor.
Diverse knowledge is unnecessary, but aptitude for it is essential to
Fundamental simplicity has an infallibility.
All things are linked by a bi-sexual correspondence, and aloneness is an
The essential predisposition to love all things for a while is intoxication.
We fail to understand the mysterious lives we live, the plurality of things
and the singularity of Ego. Whatever stage we reach is through unities.
In relating ourselves- the unknown, the receding- everything that
escapes the geocentric seems more significant.
The reality we know is interconnected with the unseen by some design of
thought we have yet to know.
The superman becomes idiot saying "I am the Law". Outside of himself he
is a dangerous somnambulist for he leads the blind.
Beauty and ideals should be strong social passions, not ornaments
hidden in a closet.
A mental purging of meanings is essential for a more vital thoughtstream to shape our near ability.

Man must become a realist first or he will remain a fool. There is pause
in life when all becomes unreal and ominous; a transitory phase which
becomes our level of life. A decision, a choice, has to be made
existentially, facing oneself, not from abstracts or logic but from our
innate good and evil.
Matter alternating, evaporating, exhausting, correlates with our means of
dynamic extension- our means of obsession.
All things are in flux, nothing is static, but our truths are not immutable,
and dynamic differences appear contrary to our interrelatability.


Ideas are more prolific when the struggle is for the unconceived rather
than for the known.

real needs and go about the world mouthing doctrines of salvation like
mountebanks with nostrums.
The beauty we realize is the level of our intensity and the difficulties we
overcome are the measure of our vibrant expression...
Sentiment (our full emotion-equation) is the inbetweenness, man and his
span, ego and all else that links him to the mind-soul reciprocally. The
common right of infinite relationships is yet free, strengthening,
inspiring, becoming a tireless search for Truth and
The Life-Force is the greater logic we overlook by our blind ethics.
i extend their province, their mistakes are limiting- doors shutting on

- and the splendid figure of Art changes to a
decadent witchcraft.
Long have we known the near without knowing its lineage. Ego
experiences more by recognition of diversity than of likeness. Originality
expresses our surprise at things felt more than at things understood.
The body is organic knowledge with cryptic signatures of its begetters, to
which we add a dithering paraphrase.
We do not live eternally yet seek knowledge of eternity.
A mystic is one who experiences more of himself than he can articulate.

Until we are increative we are only circumstantial causes of change.
We form our mental conclusions via language and posit exact logic as
considered evidence from insecure and ambiguous ideographs, further
involved by legerdemain grammar and propositions become
presumptuous. Better by far are definitions by symbolism and analogy,
for at least they show subjective relationships between particular states
and objective facts. Acts of judgment, however arrived at, are also
involved in the apprehension of those relationships which are called

- re-remembered associations. Also, meaning is involved with
concurrent thinking from unknown presuppositions or inherencies.
Abandoned, undigested and forgotten impressions and ideas desire their
evolutionary fulfilment and become substitute figures of their meanings.
Most abstract thinking and dreaming is meandering in this limbo of
symbolic thought-forms; such fortuitous gleaning is in the direction of
inspiration from something more potent.
The only content of reality we know is Ego, or potential Ego: the thesis
that there is related Ego- something like our own that can feel in some
manner- has credence because all things are parts of a whole: hence,
everything has equal significance and an essential and universal
A renaissance: new forms represent the greatest daring in Art. If there
were no new forms then there would be new juxtapositions and


the real thing, Ego what we realize of it.

; the
exceptions prove the possibility of great differences by changes. The
longevity of cultures, hierarchies, institutions, ideas or beliefs do not
prove their general worth or truth, often the reverse (a hundred million
people can be wrong). The exceptions are usually overlooked. For
instance, the oldest and most lasting of religions, the earliest Egyptians-
a complete theology in itself- is now defunct, sans priests and followers.
It maintained the most rigid of conventions and limits and, throughout,
the culture remained archaic.

If the Mind is a refraction of the Soul then it also comprehends and
all the different realities and the imaginings we see and feel.

faculty, from this ever-changing, contracting and expanding speculum,

yet always coalescing and designing a different pattern as a whole.
Thought (as thinking) with its associating and reasoning faculties is our
nexus of Soul, Mind, and Body. Its unified impact on matter is

consciousness. I
kinetic factor, initiating a constant incest and spacious fornication of
which we are unaware in spite of controls; except, maybe, through those
intrusive symbol-ideas that become intelligible forms only via inspiration
from these complex unities by some other synthetic coition. The result
becomes for us a work of genius.
What is Space? A place of prefiguring, of mutation, of refunctioning that
allows the procreated design for birth. For Space cannot contain
emptiness- always developing, extruding, drifting, and forcing deposits
into the closets of time as correlatives; accumulating and re-shaping to
drift again in some stream of air or water.
What is conscience? From our likes and dislikes made law, it assumes a
beauty-reflex of our inherent values of good and evil, forming a personal
religious culture begotten by the training of our Ids.
Our will proceeds from and is formed by preceding efforts, and so our

further deliberati
to control our instincts by transference.
What is the nexus of cause and effect? One answer is by the question:
what stimulates cause to effect? To illustrate: I desire to make a pot, and

from ide
z already
definitely the medium between idea and creation. But we have

certain factors, there is already a concatenation-

has permitted conation. Whether initial
is from without or within it is here identical, because related to

constant concatenation answering necessity leveled to our ability.
Wisdom is in the realization of the mysterious incomprehensibility of all
things. Whoever the designer, he is the generator, and all the partial
disclosures of our knowledge prove this. I find it difficult to recognize my
own part in anything.
If I am begotten of all yesterdays, then Ego (made of memories become
flesh) is my only lamp for the tomorrows.
Memories are the ghosts of experience seeking to revive, to re-birth in us.
In those things in which Man is unlike his Gods he is unlike himself.

s a refraction of all other selves and the
gods, man becomes more of himself with an inclusive awareness. But by
conscious selflessness we become automata of our frustrations- fit
subjects and media for the stray astrals of the Q
it is the negation of our own life.
I teach the multiplicity of all things- of the gods, of the milliard

in all things, but nothing obtains except by the casual unities of
separates that make our differences. When a man realizes his essential
separateness and sees himself as everything else, his only virtue is to
further differentiate himself from otherness, then only has he won
manhood towards Godhood.
My gods have grown with me, hence I never outgrow them; they are my
There are no final conclusions. We are born believing in means to an
ultimate, and life is such desire believing. Therefore, believe in the power
of belief, and that sincerity will integrate sufficient Will for its purposes.

transcendentalism and the magic of dynamic change.
Reactions are often worse than the thing reacted against.
Anathema quadrivial: the dark obliques from zodiacal signs, the
evolutionary-parental chains, the environmental matrix, the obsession
from foiled appetitive urges: thus are we born prehensive to, and slaves
of, inheritances.
Creating a necessity is our utility.
The Divine effluvium is an eternal creative diversity: we are an ingression
by contingency from which we simulate the creative when sufficiently

emotional experience.

Those who would know themselves through their gods as other than
their own selves- how blighted they appear, how sadly lost are they in
their tautological theories. They too shall awaken from their adolescence
and realize that the less we now of ourselves in other gods the nearer we
are to the vast wisdom of our flesh.
The soul is a continuum: all perceptions are relatable, therefore real. The

continuum of all aspects of knowledge is as a background to
consciousness, the past becoming explicit to extend our Self.

si-reality, not the
The noumenon of mind is seemingly susceptible only to
as phenomenal form. Thus all our awareness is reflected,
into actuations. Yet over and above this we have that queer feeling which
attempts to get behind, to rationalize the unclarifiable. But we never do,
being dimensionally chained and bed-companions to Mrs. God or the
misused Id.

So, rightly or wrongly, I think this;- What was once free, casual and
formless, seeks arbitrary laws, is precipitated into Time and dimensional
form with definite functional purpose and direction about which we can
only guess. Object: to realize all probabilities within definite limits, as yet
unreached. These extend and allow formative desire through necessity of
realization by excreative means. How much or how little is possible is

The infinite Cosmos, the Milky Way, and all therein manifest from
organism- thus all things continue. There are no alternatives or different
derivatives. So, without truth are such assertions that we did not
originate ourselves of our own free will (or otherwise). We do not know-
our amnesia covers so much. All our early history and potential, now
latent, unbeknown yet, which were Unities, Truth, Freedom, etc., are
now separate, untrue, powerless, or appear diverse- all vice-versas. But
the eternal ever-varying flux of our media-relatability is as the ebb and
flow of our capacity towards greater affinity with all possibilities within
the ever omnipresent mind, as flesh, to manifest.
We are a great company: none walks alone, but with a formidable host of
familiars, however we may clothe, shut out, or prohibit them. There is a
veritable funeral procession of dead selves and loves always in
We presuppose that our processes of thought and conation are those of
Nature, whereas they are a conditioned process with limited technique
within our understanding: in no manner are we spontaneous- though
other powers in us may simulate such when we are sufficiently
Even to see myself in others, all so much alike, the same beast amuck-
rather let me know trees and have friendship with plants.



We know our lineage is of all things, yet the deepest thought, the wildest
guesses are futile answers as to why we exist. The answer may be tied up
in some form of pleasuring now unknown to us but not to our early
originations... we never reach the first cause.
The diversities and differences of sentient beings are determined by
planted functional desires which it is our purpose to change. We become
what we desire most, and, usually, different to what we hope; repayment
comes first.
Our levels are determined by our selectivity and visualizing ability.
Our adequacy is achieved by the constant effort of emulation; stale selfsufficiency
has never inspired or won much energy.
The ethical question resolves itself into a search for the principal motive
The Stoic acts with no
Therefore we must will against all fears
and evil for essential good; for so man shall endure all travail.
Where there is life there is a degree of consciousness, however shadowy,
with all its interrelating protenses. When the homogeneity of matter
breaks or divides, activity manifests as multiples, and individual
modifications begin.
We are overstuffed with words- now a veritable systole and diastole of
mind. Whether or not we articulate correctly we suffer post-prandial
Neither Universe nor man is complete, completing, or dissolving, but
resurging and re-indulging existing forms, reshaping them to form new
pleasures of flesh impacting flesh. At least, so I who love fat women
When thoughts dissociate themselves from the correspondences and
gradations between contrasting things, they will reform abundantly with
new correlatives as emotional content in our resultant processes of rearrangement. Final representation is an asymmetrical balance... this

us in contact with reality- all reality being more abstract than actual, a

para-ideal we know and cannot grasp. The nearest we attain to it is by a
union of all the senses. A personal sentiment can, by suitable emotional
channeling, be affective and can associate and express nuances and

portraying as in Nature.
In our relation to Cosmos, if significance is measured by our increative
ability then we are of no greater worth than the amoeba. Nature permits
no interrogation; our techniques merely imitate, and only if so allowed.
Deceiver, do not further deceive yourself.
The function and purpose of life seem almost an experiment in genius; a
chosen few at one time.
Our early acceptance of things as they are, as dominant reality, later
becomes overshadowed by doubt and we conclude that evil is real,
potent, and contrary to Almightiness. But, lest we forget, there was no
evil until ma< advent
K and therefore there is a certain madness in

Things totally without knowledge
seem to function perfectly and are alone beyond good and evil.
The Mind is protean, ever-including, but all our ways and means are
governed by multiple laws of limits which cannot be transgressed easily,
although elastic, alterable and changing. Man cannot break natural laws

yet he may break himself against them. T
Whatever we commit to life unknowingly, concurrently causes a subtle
superfetation which forms our media for ubiquitous thoughts which form
our Ego: then Soul steps in. We are always a functional throwback, the
articulation of past latencies clamouring for reformation. The complex
development of body becomes a more elastic medium for Ego, Mind and
Soul to work through. The purpose of life appears as the conversion of
matter from collective uniformity (stinking lump) into specialized
separatenesses, i.e., a diversity of individuals. Hence there is no
universal brotherhood based on equality, there being no age-group of
experience, just the reverse. Time relates us to ability. Whatever our
claims concerning interrelatedness, this is governed not only by heritage
but by aptitude. Ability indeed has to be deserved the hard way- the way
of techniques and efforts.
The body is the stuttering puppet of the mind, beginning as automatic
and becoming autonomous. A transference- the puppet becomes the
There is a tendency towards theosophic paranoia and mental diarrhea

such as "There is no law beyond- Do what thou wilt". This backward
conceit serves as the highest abstract of the occult equaled only by the
bawdy, meaningless scribble of youth and evinces a great fear of
responsibility. Our own laws are arbitrary and may be broken but we do
not escape the consequences of their violation. None is beyond Good and
Evil, Time or Dimension, with their laws and limits. Not one word, not
one gesture, not one graph proves otherwise.
All our integrations stem from our intro-extrovertive ability; a mental
breathing- give, take and remake.
Hopes and fears form the arch of most religions and creeds; concretely or
abstractly there is little more from which to build them. What of
mysticism?- a more enrapt self-indulging, more gaudy, the more
common denominators: fortuitousness and escapism clothed in

I am
my own law", it sayeth. Hope on, for you are much more than you are:
much more than you will ever guess as possible.

f-protection, nutrition and sensation- breeding
every hybrid and abortion by constant grafting, cross-breeding, against
their, and our, intended purpose, or so it seems. What cloudy enemies,
what astounding conceptions, mythologies, ideologies, lies, half-truths,
frustrations, transferences, they have spawned and still spawn- all
deceptions blinding us again and again. But ever, through this jungle
have they created their good and evil-
over-ridden, murdered or superseded. Here, no prayers please; therefore
let us smile at our bloodiness in defeating only ourselves.
Here dwelleth delusion: a man sees a coiled rope and imagines it a
snake, and thereby is afraid and runs away in terror. The rope is real,
and still a rope; the fear suffered with the reaction is also real although
bred of imagination. The delusion was caused by poor observation. Yet
some would have it that because things are not what they appear to our
itself at
once- therefore everything is illusion. It proves that our imaginings from
illusion are real in as much as they react on us in the same manner as if
from reality.
We survive more through cowardice than courage.
Symbolic creation: a chair is not explained by its parts nor by its
material or quantitative measurement. Chemical analysis and
mathematics will not disclose all its meanings or origination. A chair

The functional unity begat the conception,
design and form, which themselves are governed by, or adapted to, the

material and ability available. Beauty is subsequent to utility- whether a
chair is evolved over a period by co-operative ability or not is immaterial
to the argument. Thus, the abstract of a chair involves: Mind, Thought,
Conception and reification- everything else is integrated in these. From
which we may surmise that our essential necessity (i.e., what we
sufficiently desire) will evolve from abstract reality (Mind) for our needs to
function further. Nature appears indifferent as to whether our demands
are good or evil.

fearless self-positivism. The animus is imminent, generating
spontaneous action by immediacy towards the object. There is no

The arrivist pre-forms as
conceived; he does not know of failure which would be procrastination
only. Level is never incommensurate to ability thus inspired.
Intelligence is the ability of composition, our power or arbitrary
conjunctionalism giving harmony and significance to incongruities.
Darkness is only a degree of light, imperceptible to us. There is no
absolute antithesis, only variation, except for God who is the antithesis
of all things we desire him to be and must transpose to our selves.
Dreams are another and future reality, not what we suppose, nor what
we desire, but what we will receive of our perverted self and its allergies
to life. The whole process is a symbolic extroverting of secret
adumbrations from the past, the events masquerading as metaphor or
allegory in an ideographic language.
Beware the demagogue with a plausible ideology for your betterment, he
is a dangerous throwback, mass murder his weapon.
So we are necessary, and necessitarians of a limitless necessarianism.
Things become only by making the necessity... Gods, Souls, Bodies...
anything will obtain, leveled to the necessitousness of the aspirant.
Art should show us the likeness we desire to know, the likeness we miss
in our day-to-day seeing.
...It is true that it is untrue, that we cannot believe the unbelievable (i.e.,
the unrelatable). If I cannot relate to God, am I more than the fetishmaker? And can you say this is ungodly if all things are God? For all
things being God and his Will, he also determines the will of man and is
also sentenced to this prison of the body. Again the same crapulence of
Godliness! Thank God we are not a conception from what is conceived as

God... things are bad enough...
Poverty fosters more illusions than wealth, hence the poor are the
imaginative ones. Results are delayed- sometimes till the third and
fourth generation.
Be enthralled by what you observe, and later critical of what you deduce.
Unless one is hypersensitive to things there is no significant response.
Why do we exist? Our chief function is to live fully, however near the
negations. What difficulties we make of this life and of the living! For
most it has become a survival, a foregoing and forgetting- at best, a
narrow selecting... There are more who would escape life than retain it.

Earth must begin and return here. Nothing is obtained except by desire,
and our only medium is flesh: appetent mouth and grasping hand. In the
midst of reality we strive, and unreality is our accomplishment. Hence I
teach the equal reality of all things- man and his illusions. Dreams shall
flesh... some day.

There is a
-fighting their fears:
automata actuated by their committed untruths, seeking release from
self-created illusions.
To be repressed by others- our greatest evil? Finally to uninhibit and
express ourselves is usually a greater curse.
He who places his pleasure in one thing has little to please him and a
certainty of dissatisfactions...
Unless emotionally exhausted, we have no time for creative ideas, deep
thought, or silence.
Sufficient amenities for life, liberty of mind, a disciplined body, fecundity
of conception and facility of expression- what more should one need of
Freedom unless to rob others of theirs?
The duality I know is between man and man, man and nature, man and
his God. Man is a revolt and his apparent duality the Great Mystery.
Truth is sustenance, and there is nothing untrue anywhere; it may oft
appear so because we cannot relate it accurately.
Many men seek virgins for pleasuring, whereas I am oft content with an
old bitch. Sound practice if you have imagination.

The object of loving is to be the beloved, and the begetting is evidence of
consummation. There is no contraception in the great procreative effort
to become ourselves.
You cannot start from not-belief and hope to flow into the stream of
belief, as if this were possible. Usually, the inveterate Id believes for us.
The secret of happiness is to be in harmony with yourself- little more is
permitted or desirable. Seek your own environment and adapt it: do not
I know but vaguely what I have made from
memory into myself.
If there is


- i.e., the convertibility of
everything into every other thing to emerge again as more distinct.
If the voice of the majority is divine it has never articulated. The majority
has only borrowed ideas.
All culture, discovery and Ideals emanate from a few individuals who
have seldom sought power or wealth for their own ends.
The significance of Greek art is that it is a possible Ideal derived from the
average; its potentialities are unexploited.
Care nothing for any social activity unless unplanned.
The unknown is a metaphor, spacious, undulating and exhibiting. Our
emotional reaction to it becomes our meaning of life of which few only are
partly conscious.
There is no deliberate, pre-planned passage from the particular to the
universal. The passage from the concrete to the abstract is mainly casual
and takes various forms, amongst which knowledge does not contribute


All creative influence begins inwardly or inspirationally, however
exhibited, often unmethodically or chaotically. It subsequently becomes
deductive, formal, doctrinal, or mathematicalized.
A known aspect reveals a new one, our presence being able to make
associations with it. Imagination is still the best copula in the field of
The best commands my responsibility; the highest in me is stimulated by

dormant egotism. What is known without is the exhausting part- a
heavy heritage that seems to baulk as well as help.
Beginnings and endings have no reality- they are dramatic changes.
There is no excess towards beauty-


I accept only equity: no law or doctrine can be sacred to me while my
nature discloses none.
While learning, always do what you would avoid doing; difficulties will
not cease but fear of them will and this is the beginning of great facilities.

Nature reveals first by our imitating her and then by our denying her.
What is it we desire of each other? The usual blood issue, a less known
unity, or our hungry deficiency seeking fulfilment...?
The nexus between cause and effect is that of immediacy.
The omniscience of the Soul throws persuasively over all things its
shadow of Knowledge.
Our whole potentiality lies in our ability habitually to feel things
Our truth is the totality of our observations when confirmed by our
The key to all metaphysical phenomena (mind, soul, etc.) is wrapped up
in our needs.
What sounds the depths and conjoins Will and Belief? Some inarticulate
hieroglyph or sigil wrought from nascent desire and rhythmed by
unbounded Ego.
We pray... like a convulsed Naiad transfixed by rape.
There is a Grimoire of symbology, of vague phonic nuances that conjoin
all thought and is the cryptic language of the subconscious world.
Deep silence and lonely longing unfreeze the all-prolific mind.
Life is a wanton whose price is death.

Our thought-patterns result from quantitative aggregations, gradations,
variations, juxtapositionings and proportionings derived from our

depends on our ability to re-

Cognition has no law, but we induce processes from some latent and
syllogism conjoining other opposites

Our lives are spent in finding the solution, a reciprocity of para-rational
Normality should be your total difference from it.
All things are temporal feelings of Things; and Perceptions, however
abstract, are realities of a reality. Existence is prehensive flesh seeking
new unities, an unpatterning process from an innate diaper, reshaping
by relating and unrelating, including and excluding. There is no
conclusive ingression or exclusion from probabilities. For all creativity is
away from constant uniformity and finalities. Causes are from older
experience predetermining its own resurrection as actuality in a new
difference. Thus the primal purpose is originality for pleasure,
compensating for the travail of change. Ego, as entity, is a concretion of
selective affinities leveled by our ability of recollection. Nothing becomes
except by the effort, as mutual emotional apprehension. How quickly we
tire and seek safety! I would ask you sometimes to forget all safety, and
deny your God before you are forsaken, when fatigued.
God within us? Animals would have a better chance... Be certain that all
ancestry is within, whatsoever it may be, and that it is possible to be a
corruption of a finer thing. Therefore I would ask you to look within-
destroy all that leads away from the Ideal, for your purpose and survival

There is virtue in understatement and elimination as against emphasis
and buildup: a significance in omitting, yet appearing complete.
All genius is a conversion from obsession by suppressive factors, giving
the simulations of the desire and finding release by conative expression:
madness the failure.
When we strive to make things logical to us instead of ourselves to them,
then are we makers of ugliness; affections fail and we decay and all we
touch suffers.

If I obey my Ids, whom do my Ids obey? And when my dog obeys me
against his wishes, does he obey me or his Ids? (Which means we also
obey external influences we know nothing of.) If desires were not satisfied
by transmutation, sublimation, substitution and other forms of
transference, then we should be nothing more than a scrap-heap of
thwarted impulses. How often can we desire uninhibitedly, and satiate?
Also, where there is human congress, the first essentials are religion,
law, morality, and conventions with their corollary of reward and
punishment- the harness of the Ids. Only the Stoic seeks and practices
virtue for its own sake: not from fear, but by obedience to his Ides or his
Evolution is a process of change by creating variation, a constant
amalgam of inexact sub-divisions, increasing differences, that follow a
law of asymmetry based on constant dissymmetry becoming more and
more complex until the original prototype ceases to know itself or its
relatedness to all its multiple forms.
To speak of one God is equivalent to speaking of one man, one universe,
etc. Constant multiplicity is the law; amalgamation and emergence to
produce the greater individual.



The reification of your Ideal shall
engender life in you. By one sincere belief be-lived, the Soul is nearer and
discounts your uncommitted things to life. Remember: all law, of its own
necessity, is endowed with good and evil and entails commitments and
obedience; for all belief becomes your law.
Our going forth to find the greater Self is by the path we know least; by
losing ourselves until we find ourselves.
Whether God made us or is within us, we are not yet a reflector- in
whole or in part- of God. No syllogisms or revelations prove anything
except our own signature and that we are like a work evolving and
completing, of one great artistry- now plus our own bloody vandalism!
If the outer world is not a delusion then our concepts therefrom certainly
give birth to illusions, and we are as vaulted catacombs inhabited by
strange phantoms that wait to suck that energy to resurrect, to live, by a
memory of that time when we made flesh from dreams.
There is no greater mystery than man because of his imperfections, his
great love of falsity, his great hatred of his Self.
Ego, with all its varying degrees of consciousness, is our light in the

darkness of the unseen and unknown, for it has infinite relatability that
will replenish our light.
We often feel more in strangers, in new things, forgetting our nearer
relatives, so seek relation elsewhere. No! Not when... I am forgetting the
sticky anticipated near-legacy... that damned something for nothing.
Chaos is the hyle of order and the future design. If this universe sprang
into existence from non-intelligence, purposelessness, and if everything
is an accidental by-product, then we are bastards of futilities. Things
exhausting and reforming may appear as chaotic, an essential fluidity...
There is nothing accidental, everything is a predestination of incredible
intelligence and order, and to some extent in ourselves- also incredibly-
hence the doubts. Never should we doubt our possibilities via duality.
Thinking becomes an inverse reflection of our emotional needs with
resultants becoming changed to some other object.

equity: there need be
no other denominator of law, morality and behaviour.

Damnation: how much must we hate to love? How much destroy to live?
And how much unlearn to know anything whatsoever!
With some, love of masquerade has become a categorical imperative;
when professional a kind of masturbation, imitation without proper
The pre-requisite for wisdom is to distinguish what we accept as true,
from what is true for us.
The law of the great Id: to trespass all laws.
Nature would be gladly rid of us by making us autonomous.

Of our solitariness: great depths are sometimes sounded; Truth hides in

-devouring Vampire taking
only bloody repayment. The answer: our gods so do.

Do not be over-proud: the forgotten iota, the unseen germ, can kill or
make you slip on your own midden.

Such as they are, and whatever they are, hold fast to your beliefs- if your
own. There is nothing more indigenous to yourself and its effort towards
When desire arises from necessity and is acceptable to functional
purpose it will formulate aesthetically and have great relationships,
experiencing the full emotional scale.
Inconsequential thinking implicates more innate predispositions which
eventually formulate, become spatial, and slather over into small things.
What we make factual ceases to have abstract value and becomes its
own antithesis.
Life is a half-truth.
Syllogism of predicament: Do we understand a thing by knowing it? By
possessing it? And when we understand a thing sufficiently do we desire
All thoughts are dissatisfied desires which gives the enthusiasm for life:
Thought is abstract semen seeking sentience.

All things are ex-copulatory: Everything is begotten of another similar
thing with tendency of dissimilarity. So, any variant of a variable
increases variability:
The promiscuous superimposition of two modifications of the same thing
is further differentiation: God manifests as man, as man manifests God:
otherwise everything reduces to absurdity.
Man has latencies he has yet to conceive of: ecstasy is the stimulate of
Of flesh we transfer/transmit by unity; our potentials, our absoluteness
are by the same means: The nexus of all things is consummation.
We distort facts into fictions and our fictions serve as facts: Truth.
"Suggestio falsi": But to my naive mind, a naked bottom is a naked
bottom, and a large colourful one equal to a sun-rise- both are freely

accessible and pleasurable.
I cannot conceive of any religion (involantry tribute) so profound, as
appreciation of the flesh, it has never been sufficiently so, no texture
equals flesh.
All intersubjectivity is from flesh impacting flesh.
Truth is our pragmatism, nothing is possible through freedom because

Gods are usually our presuppositions to explain ourselves.
Our conative ability is always adequate to our necessity, not our
Presential existence is what we make contiguous to Ego.
We cannot appreciate the daily miracles because we have a sore thumb-
we always have a sore thumb.
Reality is not apprehended through our conceptions of it, remains a
mystery: our concern is making our own form of reality.
Everything returns to its source? Probably, and most certainly if we are
originators. All things change all the time and develop from the simple
into vast complexities so we are uncertain of their origins.
Is the originator greater than his works? Let us have- Hope, Faith and
A touch of lusty levity cures the illusions of our hemianopic moralities,
sensibilities and righteousness; for the life-force is not blind- we are.
If God is manifest in all phenomena, our reactions have outstripped the
Devil himself.
If our ethics were as logical as our techniques and methods of design
they would at least have appropriateness.
Whether the psyche develops with the body, or whether a transmutation
occurs or is created by us, matters little as long as we endow it with Godlike form.
Chaos wedlocked to chaos gave birth to order.

e may take.
Because of our infinite relationships, potentialities are there. The shapes
of form are not yet exhausted and there are no miracles beyond living
matter. Though flesh in its most radiant beauty is miraculous, it does
not imply that Nature has exhausted all possibilities of pleasuring in
You are still inchoative, unfit for eternity, hence you face changes and
Whether you behave as common stone or as precious jade, be expedient
unto all men. Hence in Rome do not necessarily as the Romans but
adroitly be yourself.
Materialists state that "mind is the accidental product of matter", which
is equivalent to saying that a chair- or any human-made object-
accidentally produced man and the mind, and the reasoning that reified
it. Materialists have to swallow their own statements.
They use their

separate existence lies in our reaction to things; my feeling is my

apperception, i.e. Ego; for what I
as I
not be felt by anyone else.
Symbolic cosmogony: the Absolute alone is arbitrary; the design of
Cosmos and Creation is Its work. The Soul reflects the whole, refracting
it partitively into the mind which becomes the storehouse of experience
as Memory. Thoughts are the evoked past images regrouped and
patterned by the reasoning faculty. These transferences act on their

we call life, and

degrees of consciousness we name Ego (self) whic

and becomes a synthetic imitation or analogy of the whole-
conclusively but never conclusive.
There has always been this self-subconscious doxology: "I believe in the
Arabian Nights", or "in all my wishful thinking", and this is certainly as
near truth as any other truth- usually more so. Truth is- what we make
Passion is purchased by passion.
When we exploit the extent of solitude we find it is more crowded than a
great company, and the abode of our own realities. There is no retirement
from solitude and we fear it when conscience is actively malignant.
When we find a friend in ourselves our enemies are powerless.

The sexually indolent are as moral suicides; they waste themselves for
small appetites, and those who fret the flesh shall be cursed by
something worse.
I love the greeting smile of Gods and strangers- I never know what it
may mean!
To profit from the Soul is as difficult as evoking it.
Only dominant desire shall compel us to do successfully what we want to
Even knowing better, when self-forgetful we live on borrowed clichs.
Accept a favour only by imposing one.
The wise read, think, and accept as an opinion, as evocative merely,
never as truth or as a conclusion for themselves.
Conventions, habits, fashions, make us either outmoded or servile to

mad hatred.
Man is rather to be defined as a perversion of himself... living as if
everything gave support to his untruth. Being corrupt, it becomes a
virtue to disobey ourselves.
We have the false hope that death will stop all other calamities.
Learning teaches us how much we may lose in the process.
If our virtues are generally faults carried to excess, it is because there is
a little badness at the beginning.
When we see a great work of art- we live again.
Psychology has become the best seller- the modern work of bawdy
Knowing ourself is like sleeping with a dragon.
We know little of truth yet there is nothing without it.
Thoughts direct and words govern our lives.

All secrets of Nature are kept by a kind of telling: they are under our
Systems and logic become a conspiracy against originality, so great ideas
are ill birthed.
All of us would be lost in freedom.
Friendship is the best mutual self-indulgence and the only necessary
correlator of all contacts. To begin with, be friends with yourself.
Man is the unnotable exemplar of much more than he ever remembers.
Life proceeds only by its ability to create difference, nothing would
emerge from the same damn thing after another.
When old memories are stimulated by some ephemeral event, thought
responds and we can force thinking by association and be fully conscious
that we are doing so- matter being the vehicle of mind. To this fractional
extent we can control the content of memory.
Faults made habitual become our idioms and style.
Nothing easy has much new substance or growth.
The eternal alternations compel our untruth, unless we re-orientate.
To feel and to understand are an equation.
The main premise of Religion is the demanding of complete acceptance

abstracts and mysteries of life. As proof, it is asserted that God, or
Cause, being so miraculous in its/his workings as to be beyond
comprehension, over-rides all bafflement at contradictions and
incongruities. I admit: Nature has accomplished the impossible- has she
not created man? If you can so delude yourself, and stomach this stuff, it

than non-belief, and gives something- if only a shadowy postulation in
death, or a palliative by psycho-paralysis in life.
The inbetweenness of cause and effect is a sensuality: we are always
experiencing more, or less. Experience is interjacent to all purpose and
desire and only partly disclosed to Ego. Real and vivid experience goes
deeper, oft-times within lightning reactions, as when the mind releases
an obligat

fallacies, for the upstep of values.
For most the path of life is oesophagism- an end, not a means. But the
mind is more omnivorous and may extend or limit, to transmute the
Schizophrenia is normal, we all have it: men and women are modified
forms of each other and retain a remissness or too much of the other-
sexual congress a making whole. Where abjured or frustrated,
schizophrenia may become pathological. There is also the fact that we
are constantly amalgamating our past selves; the dead live on and
reincarnate in us. We are many people. T
usually a sharp division of our good and evil, often more equal as such,
or one a little worse than the other. Usually the sublated personality is
the better half: hence impulsive and secret acts of generosity, hidden and
unasking love, etc., from the least expected. The pathological type is very
It is not things themselves but others connected with them that

encounters in himself.
"The mind in repose
becomes the speculum
of all creation": We hear too


I expect yours)
works in reverse- the stimulus is from without- always chaotic,

fatigue or sleep, a renewal of the tension necessary for contexturation of
The question is, how do we know? "Realize thyself", "Know thyself"-
which self or which part? Such statements are pathetic fallacies. How
much of such knowledge is possible, helpful or necessary? And what lies
and delusions we create in the knowing! Better for most to unknow what
they think they know- for their own good. I
psychologist to tell us that the mind contains strata of atavistic vestiges
which, with encouragement, may degenerate into the foulest anomalies-
just give the Ids their chance! And we also know that we may curb our
greedy appetites by redirection and by the placing of our real values
outside them, thus cultivating our better potentials. Yes!-
fundamentally,g everything is as simple as that,
and there is little need for

Witchuld go on
laying these manufactured ghosts- the catch-phrases of pathopsychology. What is appropriate to normalities is so ungeneralizable,
trivial, and transitory as to be almost a worthless denominator. Different
forms of control and environment cause different behaviour in people,
but our mutation now is a choice for man may be the arbiter of his genes,

and Ids, if he so desires. There is still a period in our lives when we are
again malleable and acceptive and easily transformed again to good or
We surround our acts with such a palaver that no thought is pure: a
clearance, reorientation, purgation and re-believing becomes necessary
to disentangle desires. So, conation often entails a struggle resulting in
abortive and strange after-births. Therefore weed out the clinging
hindrances of prejudices, conventions, creeds that have intertwisted in
the processes of thought, desiring a body which stultifies your ability and
makes strangers of your words and acts, and a solecism of the inbred
urge. We must make an Abraxas of our desire, to foil all irrelevancies.
Everything in this world may be easily evoked and obtained through evil,
which being contagious needs little evoking because everyone is relatable
to it by their correlatives.
I am the power of my desire (Id).
Gods do not die but our belief in them dies through the absurdities we
attribute to them. Our changing is usually a renaming and a reclothing
of Them with new attributes.
The great sterilities: the numen and the humane in man- ever present
are stercoraceous things of greed under other names.


The numen, the soul and the body never forsake you but you forsake
them for a while.

one becomes a Stoic... or a backslider to all pretences.
Through mind is our all-reachingness and thought is the copula; our
technique for articulating desire is limited, bad or mad.
Soul and mind are indifferent to our language but they answer all
affectiveness when conveying pure sentiment.
Beyond prediction are our uncommitted desires; none can show our
unities except a reflector of our inmost desires and beliefs.


Where Ego goeth, there only is the sensation and perception of reality.

workings of Equity from our own past good and evil.

they are the

We make words ambiguous by adding our meanings; qualifications
become endless and few understand themselves or others.
The Absolute creates Cosmos with its aeon; andK Cosmos formulates itself

- the realizable
reality- presented serially, partitively; never known as a whole. We see
only a fraction of this mighty reflection: with different times merging at




through changing form, environment, desires and beliefs. T
becomes kaleidoscopic, illusionary, refrangible, and we become lost to
ourselves; we neither know whether we desire to lose or to find ourselves.
We have little knowledge of ourselves, and others appear more real than
we are. We have little self-liking and hate our reflection in others, and we
thereby become unreal. No man has seen himself at any time. There is
great bathos in this
search for our unknown self and our labour to create

in a maze of re-recollection of and re-acting to the past, hence our
dithering I.
All dimensions are equations of time and relate to shape in space.
Conception is only possible through form, and Ego is our dimensional
Time, emotion, and relationship- an eternal triangle.
All that was once unconscious, intuitive or spontaneous, slowly becomes
conscious, deliberate, or arbitrary. The casual (free) is the ideal. Verbal
revelation always births harmful and specious dogmas.
We worship most our unfulfilled emotional reflection.
The full life is extremely partitive; the best things come unsought by
complete acceptance of a particular thing.


ever crystallize his desires as potentially fulfilled.

Progress depends not in running away from Nature, nor in combating it,
but in imitating it by our synthesis. Nature is sufficiently plastic to give
contexture to all probable desire- when we seek more extensive form.
Poor ideas need extravagant arguments to hide their poverty. Religious
revelation is mainly hyperbole and promise without contexture of
immediacy, and so almost worthless. Artists gave it what life and merit it

Over greater things we scrawl as gamin, an absurd or vulgar calligraphy
exhibiting our mean motives. Our ideologies have become a
superstructure of mud rococo superimposed upon the classic work of
Paganism or Nature.
Remove the conjunctions
from a sentence and most of it becomes
meaningless. I
copulative that gives meaning to things.
Certainly our thoughts are not free in that we cannot know anything
outside our past and present states, but we are mainly unaware of our
past or present states or their extensiveness. Memory constantly unfolds
and imagination is limitless. We think and believe whatever we desire to
believe, whatever the motivation. There is nothing to stop us. We have
the power to direct and control our desire, whether for the things of the
body or the more abstract conceptions from the psyche as works of Art.
With growing ability our thoughts are more free in that we gain certain
powers of transference. To us, truth has relation to how much we believe
of the things we would believe in.

Always true: I
meanings become obscure, beyond our definition, and guessing becomes
our technique. The simple becomes complex and our logic a tautology of
qualifications that are apt to somersault to their opposites, and will
transform our original order into chaos.
All experiences are true for us to the extent we have realized of them.
They ultimately become organic, hence the eternal recurrence giving
further disclosures and the feeling that we have experienced them before.
Mind and body constantly constipating is a sign of permanent invalidism.
The beautiful face covers the skull, hence beauty is the out-product of
the grotesque (no relation to ugliness).
We become like our desires: whether we desire like a God, a man, a beast
or an abortion, we become akin.
The constant process: illusions becoming true, and truths becoming

never managed it for a minute; perhaps morons are more successful.



Release from evil is more by aesthetics than by asceticism.
Learned only of our solitude is a sound personal theology.
All things realize sensationally: noting comes out of anything except by
Better to believe untruth than suffer the sterility of unassertability. To
believe anything sufficiently makes desire connective.
Only impacts have meaning: their consequences are true and real.



I am
sively realizable and advantageous, then
autistic thinking has validated itself- all things are given sufferance and
The repercussions become
our future heritage and our good and evil.
Religion is now institutionalized fear and beggary of the Soul. Theurgy

has neither quality, its aim is self+
The State, the Community, and Democracy are fictions- a small and
greedy hierarchy well hidden by political and religious facades, with all
the abilities of others (by hire purchase) ready to serve their interests.
Outside this, the public are all certifiable lunatics feeding on paraphrenic
print and other literary trivia that bleat daily of democracy, or freedom,
to rob them.
The dignity of man is that he is an individual capable of thinking and
acting with virtue as from equity; from birth his chances are not
When our spiritual and material views of life are one, each tactual to the
other, then half our absurdities, fallacies, wrong beliefs and judgments
will cease.
Some vegetate or stagnate, others gain complacency, all hoping for

their way of life.
When the assertion is made: "It has always been that way", I say: "It need
not be".
Passivity or sleep, as temporary release from tension: Yes!- but no more.

Beauty contains all meanings, could we but decipher them.
Quietism, Buddhism, and other religions, everything which denies the
flesh- is the great inferiority to God in ourselves, an escapism seeking
were hurt? Or was the odalisque unsatisfactory or too expensive? They
expected too much for too little, or were too mean to pay- therefore: "All
is illusion". But the Stoic smilingly awaits the next shower of shit from
heaven. Stoics are not Saviours, Saints or Heroes and are often confused
and weary, yet they prefer to find their own way and to accept life as they
find it. The schizophrenics, the melancholics and psychotics- they at
least are secretive and inflict no religions on others. They prove the

I am, therefore Ego alone exists as myself, never as all things
simultaneously though all things are in me- appearing and
disappearing. The mind is amoral; we determine our own good and evil
which in turn predetermine our partitiveness and unions. Man obtains
through those unions which culminate in near reality when pleasurably
metaphysic- always yielding further possibilities: our source of
continuous discovery and revelation.
The essentials for fashioning a work of art: natural affinity with media
and the object, ability to feel deeply, and unbiased seeing co-ordinated by
enthusiasm and continued effort. Technical skill will follow. Also, it must
be a necessary act (i.e., the urge to put down on paper or to pain must be
When craftsmanship employs superlative technique then it becomes
virtuosity, an artistry equaling any form of art.
What is Abstract Art? Something we do not visualize or conceive before
reification; something we feel differently about rather than know;
something that has to express and clothe itself by unusual means-
perhaps by allegory, metaphor, or some form of symbolism. Its processes
are rapid. The meaning of the work we can but guess, yet we may be sure
that its merits and truth are outlasting. There is little these days- few
are sufficiently sincere to be worthy.
The chaotic mind is essential: Chang Tzu said: "The mind in repose
becomes the speculum of all creation". Certainly a good condition for rei
visualization of the known and perhaps
for recalling to memory some

procreative and fulgurative ideas occur in a half sleep, as in dreaming,
where I see a creation that differs from the apparent one, a kaleidoscopic

chaos with every kind of intrusive image, tumultuous, with surging
crowds of vague familiars from the labyrinth of mind. There are many
other states of mind giving inspiration, often unexpected; as by the
provoking of anger and resentment, to evoke oracles from the highest
level of inspiration.
The hopeful invalid curses his sickness because he has lost the power of
transference; pain makes him entirely self-centred and nothing is more
devitalizing than such forced concentration.
Only by making the seen supremely tactual and our source of conception
can we express anything of the abstract or unseen.
Everything has the means of protection, nutrition and reproduction: the
great adjunct is a possible rhythm to otherness- a symbolic dance of
potentials- outside the blind cycle of the Ids; otherwise we are mere
We are as Gods according to our own ability. In this process or progress
away from Absoluteness and towards man-conceived God we develop
self-will, which must manifest by duality and where we again face
another chaotic transition. This process has bred great individuals of all
kinds whilst the bulk of mankind drifts on in unequal development-
mainly sub-human. Thus, to be nearer our God-hood we must regress
functionally and rely chiefly on atavistic impulses of the remote past
until we are inspired by a pure instinctivism needing no other reaction

than it
evoked by a process of re-membering backwards to the primal instincts

The Stoic does not teach by exhortation or dogma but by exemplary acts:
neither does he indurate himself by separation from the world and by
emotional selfacceptances, and if desired, analgetic. He is never lost when realizing
himself in otherness. He is a solipsist, self-dependent, demanding only
from himself, seeking no privileges; which does not preclude his giving
and accepting gifts.


for affective pleasure: the sensualist for objects of sex, the aesthete for
beauty, etc. Man is generally purblind- few know what they seek, only
what they infer as extrinsic. The Arrivist knoweth by exteriorizing the
intrinsic, by evocation; for what is not implicitly effective is never
explicitly affective.
I would teach

If you would realize God

you must first re-create your God within. You can become God by
expurgating- for what is without is an exhausting-transudating past.
The immoral asceticism: having suffered they shut out the world of
reality, as the means of personal salvation. If there is salvation it is
through mankind.
The normality of life is a pastiche of unsituated occasions seeking
transient or temporal alliances by exclusions. There is a constant process
of re-sensitizing for interrelating towards novelty: every aesthesis is a
potential creative prehension; promiscuity is change- our readaptation
to new events for emotional ingression by affinitive pleasure- selection is
predetermined by possibility from a like experience.
Shit: jumpers to conclusions, generalizationists, malapropists, dream-fed
wishful thinkers, self-hypnotized ideologists, materialists, Mayamongers, zombie-zenists, the dirty-tedious apologists of Gods and men,
and many other "schools"- all destroy their own arguments by having to
make use of that which they deny. Thus: "Know that nothing can be
known", which at least implies that you know that you cannot know. I
assert that that Knowledge is the potential of knowing ultimately all
things. Again, "all is illusion", "all is unreal", "the intelligence is false",
"we have no direct experience of personality"... ad nauseam. And so we
have the reality of illusion as one delusion falsifying another. For if the
reality we are all aware of is unreal and we, illusionary automata without
personality, and everything false, how can we know whether it is illusion
or know of an Absolute from our unknowableness?
But! We are of the Absolute, in as much as...! Otherwise, neither you nor

speck of protoplasm. Or is there a difference? And therein lies the
answer. If we cannot know what is the truth, then perhaps we can
establish a negative, i.e., know what is inessential to truth? The answer
is both and neither, for all things are essential to truth because all things
are true.
wrongly relate them in time and place. Moreover, Truth (for us) is always
enwrapped in our belief, whatever it may be. But, if I cannot explain the
Truth- for it would slip away from me- then I can truly assert I am the
living truth.
Within the prison of dimensions and the cage of words we feed as
necrophagists on our catch-penny phrases. The reality we all see and
to- in its expansion, contraction and superimpositions- is still

come out of it. If you demand of Nature, autonomy, be sure you will

receive a little more than you can stomach. All this glib denial of
experience is self-defeating: are you not now experiencing my knowledge
via your own reasoning faculty- or are you a mackerel?

that is personal. Most of our
positive or unitary knowledge from experience has become unconscious,
organic, and functions automatically. It is not normally presented to
perception except when we are distressed or inspired. There are divergent
ways to knowledge, and many kinds of knowledge and truth. Only effort
towards truth discloses truth.
If there are no conclusions- though things

evolve, devolve and involve-
always is. We do not say that that microbe is a man or has the
potentiality of a man, although we may assert that man is a recurring
form of parasite having for himself and his kind the greatest hatred.
Life is not a means to an end, but a transference to other means...
transcending or regressing.
There is no greater evidence of weakness and inferiority than that of
greed. The creative man gives much and desires little, while the
bankrupt, decaying and diseased, needs every privilege and the world to
succour him.
A genius is not a person who has more or finer ideas than another, but
one who is able not only to visualize but to incarnate them.
Everyone desires to escape from themselves- by any or every means- a
sublimation that leads them back to themselves.
The external Cosmos is an unlimited mirror of Ultimate Consciousness,
i.e., expanding Ego.
Illusions, delusions and fantasy, whether of normality or of
schizophrenia are the adumbrations of a para-reality sensed by
When I fail to see myself in all things, then shall I pray for enlightenment.
Though limitless, Space is faveolated and nothing escapes its closets.
Space limits and makes all partitive; we are an experience of entity which
so realizes. Beyond Time is limitless entity and potential Identity.
Acceptance of all things extends outwards our character, through all
negations to ultimate poise.
Sense impressions yield inferior knowledge unless vitalized by

affectiveness from the psyche.
Man at one with Nature is inconceivable, duality is our way, Prometheus
our apotheosis.
Superman died with Pantheism- since then we have had only invalids
and salvationists.
Fear not the Gods, Life or Death, but your own cowardice and all
cowardly men.
All knowledge moves towards bloodless categories and nominalism; an
argument for occasional saturnalia.
I believe that the whole paraphernalia of psychology, with its fixations,
complexes, phobias, etc., would collapse like a rotten faade with the
breath of healthy environment and wise education. By "explaining" the
-mental processes it oversteps what
has determined or planted its cause.
The sting of harsh criticism or of those things that cause us to revolt,
release spatial responses, and when deeply felt become a means of
inspiration and audaciousness- as do the silent passages of deep
Whatever we invite or accept of our own thought must first of all be
expressed as a memory-metaphor. The figures and forms of our less
deliberate expressions become, when persistent, the personifications of
our abstracts.
Aesthetics are a reality- more permanent possibilities of sensation.
Any concept of reality is unanalyzable, yet through the whole physical
world there runs an unknown content which must be tactual to
consciousness- for it gives it reality.
Mankind returns to its old self by the path of its deviations: faith in
genetic systems gives substance to audacious ability.
If the heart decay, pleasurable life ends and a deadly race of elementals
shall incarnate, protecting their powers by cruelty and nihilism- gross
human minotaurs. Exterior protection favoured the development and
condition of such primaeval elementals. The human social state is not
aware of this precedent, thus the transference of powers to varied
conditions of human providence is dangerous.

Poverty of Art and Philosophy leads to great evils, and knowledge is
"justified" only as the model for greed; ideals, and life itself, are belittled.
The unknown substrate of human cognition is inspiration- all knowledge
is subsequent.
Genius is obsession, a form of love committed to life, reshaping and
conserving itself by resisting bravely those things which interfere with its
Will is but lent to us and we put it to noble or to base ends; our good and
evil stalk us and predestine our becoming.
If we are begotten of inconceivableness we are kindred.
Things that are ends in themselves tend to emotional extremes and
Greater certainties begin where logic ends.
Through our inability to attain the factual absolute, we of necessity seek
the abstract- an antithesis of spatial merit.
"I am" is implicit in "I desire", and awaits the influx of "I will": conation
begins when these are in harmony.
In addition to merely immediate futilities, knowledge aids our ability to
conceive desirous abstractions and ideals, to seek development from the
contiguous and to join experience with old memory.
The only mediator of the soul is automatic anoesis.
"I am I" only if "You are You"- will be a new apperception.
Being more dependent on instinctivism, inspiration, etc., as emanating
from the Supernal, needs no knowledge to shape it until its final
The sense of identity is stimulated by contrasts, because the more
undifferentiated the less possible is self-realization. All things appear
ephemeral except Ego- our spontaneous tribute to continuity.
Our contact with the soul recedes by articulation: the phraseology of the
soul is not ours, but some baffling simplicity of parallels which may be

In a mad world mad fictions almost become essential, and I, for one,
believe that it is not essential to survival to have such madness.
The self and the blade of grass are still potentialities in vague eternities.
The damned course I run: this word-infected mouth has only uttered "I
am I" in every sphere; yet, overburdened with pretences, ills and fears,
seeks sleep awhile- that sweet release.
No dogma senses the infinite or reveals much; religion is quantity of
feeling. Real belief is not taught but recollected: belief to be real must be
profound- more even, a psychic experience, not lip-avowal.

alogue existence but, by artistry, to
enjoin the aesthetic and the ethical as logical social functions. The
uncommitted life turns out to be deeply wedlocked to life itself.
Logic refutes its own syllogisms; we fly madly from experience to religion
whose only alternative is another form of mania.
There is a deliberate type of madness which requires more effort than to
be sane.
Man is a chaos of strange paradoxes, an accomplishment of lies and
pretences proportionate to his knowledge.
Humanity sanctifies any cause.
Dreams are of so many diverse categories that any one means of
interpretation gives equally illogical results.
The continuum of memory is so interrupted by alternations of
consciousness that re-membering is a constant mechanism of
visualization precipitated by our hopes and fears seeking flesh. One
memory discloses another, and, when extremely recessive may appear
precognitive: all things foreshadow their advent.
From the fringes of consciousness there comes no certainty of what we
shall imagine next; only this is certain, it will be something that
succeeded previously but with a different intensity or merit.
Our instincts condition our appreciation of beauty, and the fact that
feelings affect our welfare predicts further changes of ethical concepts.
An adopted aesthetic culture, when foreign to our native ability, is a
disastrous commitment: false unities breed ugliness and abortions.

Art is a means of experience by abstracts that cannot be validated by
other means.
We are in the belly of the universe however much we suffer digestively.
All ideas, conceptions, abstracts and hypotheses are assumptions from
factual premises, but often so badly rendered as to be worthless.
Thought processes are derived from immense incongruities though
corresponding abundantly in meaning with emotions: conception is this
sentiment becoming mosaiced.
Although of space we have little spaciousness.
Inspiration is the successful colonization of unities beyond our
prescribed sex.
In the end, we reason that the objects of which we have no conscious
experience are relative to those of which we have.
The argument that every strong and peculiar expression is merely mental
hyperbole does not explain our correct though instinctive apprehensions,
inspirations- and certain dreams.
All believe in the extraordinary proceeds from our once-virgin
astonishment at existence itself which induces a propensity towards the
marvelous that receives a check only by redirection and relearning. But
our reasoning and our learning are both forged by presumptions. If
experience gives authority to testimony, recognition by ideas does the
We are never fully aware of things except by the influx of sexual Will
awakening us.
Pain and pleasure: neither exists without a medium. We make our own
evil- there is no malignity in Nature. Man, in his efforts to violate Nature
is himself violated.
Truth is an equation of time-space; untruth is unrelated to immediacy.
Life is insatiable desire, persistent yet ever-changing. It strives for
expression by dramatic unities. We are afraid of it by heaped-up
conventions and even stranger ethics.
The familiar induces fatigue-indifference; let nothing be seen in this

manner. Let seeing be as vision- every sight a new seeing. Fatigue is far
less frequent when this is the constant attitude.
Sincerity is difficult in the stress of transitory modality and the
kaleidoscopic chaos of near and belittling events.
We believe only as deeply as we have experienced of the believed.
All things fornicate all the time.
...And remember, you shall suffer all things and again suffer: until you
have sufficient sufferance to accept all things.
Our understanding- indeed all art and science- is fundamentally a
relationing and synthesizing of everything: Identity by identifying.
All thought-processes, whether stimulated by objectivity or by
subjectivity, must finally become a spacious metaphor revealing the
whole cosmos and everything in it as interwoven and interdependent. Its
apparent duality and separateness lie in our own concept or in
ourselves- a delegation of transference to become increative.
Any synthesis we make is of selected parts redesigned as a whole, never
a sufficient consummation. Our processes of cognition are arbitrary or
casual because nothing is presented as logical sequence. This does not
infer illogicality because we do not comprehend either relationship or
nexus. Whether it is our purpose to link with utilitarianism a correct
sequence of relationships, or whether to be more audacious and
translate our valuations into an ideal of greater reality- is our choice.
Ideas of an abstract God are just as anthropomorphic as any other, but
more back-dated.
Mathematics are a form of human logic- an arbitrary thesis which of
itself evolves nothing and proves only possibility.
The seeing of an object is the presence of an idea in thought...
Amidst the chaos of spacio-temporal phenomena we are sense-blasted,

shaken to our very depths by arguments of good and evil-
do this!": adumbrations of the conceivability of our immanence is lost.
Darken your room, shut the door, empty your mind. You are still in great
company. The numen and your genius, with all their media, and a host
of elementals and ghosts of your dead loves- ARE THERE! They need no
light by which to see, no words by which to speak, and no motive for

communication except your own purely formed desire.
Not what we believe, but how deeply and sincerely is the question:
without belief nothing can inhere.
Relationing, not religion, is the need; religion has always a wrong selfrighteousness.
Many roads have been fashioned yet none lead towards Self. Therefore,
when in company, take the eclectic Path; when alone, take the oblique to
the known.
God-Soul-Body has no more precedency than the reflector, the reflective
and reflected. They are interdependent, dependent, and independent-
becoming spatial in space, alternating in time, combining and separating
endlessly; seemingly casual as the way of the Life-force.
We cannot fathom more than the believable- that is our level of ability-
but it does not preclude our feeling more.
Euphony is formulated sound. Wisdom cannot articulate in a flood of
words but may express itself in some resounding word-graph to cipher a
mystic meaning.
See that your in-breathings are of purity so that your out-breathings are
not foul. I have indrawn all foulness, but my exhalations are not that
bad. As human beings, all we absorb- psychically or bodily- forms its
own excretion.
The rationale of our beliefs and acceptances usually spring from
pretentiousness or misconception, never as compensation for our
failures. Therefore, do not believe in God because you have failed to
realize yourself, but believe in God in order to realize that concept in
yourself. Even though the first stimulus comes from without, there is in
this way more likelihood of response.
Everywhere the juke-box wails "I got rhythm, I got music...!" and
everyone asserts that he is as good as everyone else. Yes!- rhythm with
what? The blind-worm cycle? And as good as who? No man is equal to
the gods, neither his soul nor his better self. If superior to another, the
virtuous man does not state it, concerned as he is with his inferiority.
From the phenomenal-alogical world we infer our paralogism, hence our
fictions are provable, or not, by such casuistry. Our fiction of geometry
must therefore be our method of proving fictional evaluations.

From the amoral phenomenal world we form our ethics. If (as usually

means of self-realization, does the natural liar become the best or worst

of liars? T
ability may be transferred to artistry, i.e., social validity. Means,
methods, and technique may fault or determine the ethical quality of
expression. The only pragmatic sociability of things is aesthetic truth. If a
thing is beautiful we are with it.
Accept the illusive phenomenal world as the reality of conative hyle and
sensational flesh opportuning. Accept the introspective domain as the
abstract procreative, predestinating, and equally real. And so make
things that give...
Our desiring causes a necessity. We cannot otherwise want, conceive,
make or cause necessity unless we already have it within us, and we can
evoke that thing only by functional means, i.e., by believing in a

The phenomenal is the positivistic fiction
of thought, the absolute negation of reality. Therefore, the Cosmos-
being the negative form of Absoluteness- we (I) invert the concept, either
accepting it as positive (real) and being negative to it, or being positive to
it, as if negative, or wish some other mentation equally valid. Then, the

The pheno
know and is entirely apparent, neither explaining nor revealing purpose,
meaning etc. We imitate, compare, receive spurious impressions, and try
to co-ordinate differences from which we make a synthesis and call it

- mere pretensions of partitive impressions and
personalizations of truth with or without intentional or affective
experience. This method of co-relating constitutes our Ego of flabby
presuppositions- a concretion of preferential values determinative of
validities and abstractions as good, bad, indifferent, etc., from a world of

- e.g.,
Ego as the subjective and only reality that is not a pretentious
supposition. Thus, any personalization, image, induction, deduction, or
transfer from objectivity (or subjectivity), will become valid as
appearance. Therefore it is epistemological and ontological, made within
Ego; its law (must be) unnecessitarianism, until I so determine, for this
world I so make...
...Within my right hand is allness, within my left - nothingness.
Crumbling both within my fingers there shall spring forth all the yous in
thatness, or not, as I so will. Belief is the lever and fulcrum to lift the
world- to shift the axis of being.

We have within us knowledge of all we have experienced yet we cannot
cognize it unless re-lived. What we have within us we cannot realize
unless stimulated by some experience from without: a rule of
Man leads two lives (two-faced mongrel), imaginary and more or less real.
He has marked preferences for his suppositions; he fears or resents
everything that makes him feel inferior and therefore grasps everything
that gives him a sense of superiority. Man, as standing unpretentiously
for what he is, is inferior to none- beast, man or God; which makes the
whole thing an absurdity. Man lies to defeat his defects; he deceives a
few, but himself most; paradoxically, because he is actually far more
than his pretence
than the truth. His syntax is at fault... he is only what he formulates as
be-livable as God.
The all-wise mind permits us any absurdity; yet power is given to all selfbelievers whether for good or evil. Should it worry Cosmos if we act the
Goat, or fall, in our vicious circle? Therefore, believe in yourself
altruistically and your contingencies will be equal to your ability.
The net of Space enfolds us, its meshes are close when our
contraceptives are evil. Here is hilarity: we prefigure ourselves! What do
you expect to be, in inverse ratio to your pretensions?
Man is consanguineous to all creation, his likeness is everywhere. The
Sun, Moon, Earth, all
they germinate, and all metempiric

all- his heritage and the
everlasting past into which man functionally prolapses. Life is
maintained by eternal impact and convertibility, a metamorphosis for
perfection of function. Man has become a sur-mammal mainly by the
form and perfection of his hands: his best shape permits his renaissance
to perfection as man; but even his most ideal form is deficient for any
kind of Godhood.
But man is also something of a stasis, for his forgetfulness ever exceeds
memory, and his summation is always half-knowledge. Yes, not even the
half of it. We know little or nothing of the aftermath and ultimate of
thoughts and deeds. Whether amalgamating, exhausting or developing,
nothing ceases, but changes in its form of existence and eventually
returns to the instigator... thus we increase or diminish.
The defect of all our conceptions is that they manifest a feeling for
particular forms and show little feeling for the whole. What we embrace
is obvious stuff, suggesting much or little- seldom is it subtle, illusive, or
suggestive of the spacious, unplumbed, circumambient abyss we never

succeed in enclosing, but which encloses us as an Identity in time-space.
Man has already fallen exhausted at the foot of a mountain of
littlenesses, facts, figures, knowledge, nominalism, categories, etc., which
have served only to excuse and to fuel the miseries of greed. So, every
believer in Art, Beauty, Mystery and Magic is my brother. They at least
are great geocentricists, anthropocentricists. Their reasons and
conclusions do not refute their logic or syllogisms, having one Truth only.
They do not fly from experience and lapse into faith because of failure.
They believe in the Ego, always guess their Ideas or await inspiration
from the Soul.
God: either a perspective predicament or the becoming potential self

has little tenure (tenurial form of duration in Ego): (e.g.) Our word media
of conveying meanings i.e., desires seeking substance, neither entices,
converts, enacts, only conveys back little or nil. (e.g.) God ex Mind ex Ego
as alogical, responds by uninterpreted parallel cyphers: an impersonated
sympathetic synthesis hidden within meaning (as Self to self).
(God) nothing as neither is never either and neither-neither: either knows
neither by neither-eitherness: So (as if I) neither knoweth either...
therefore when I so make an uncypherable geometric cryptograph


(unpredicting) i.e., true form, as such, must seek function from its own
thisness and will reform substantially original meaning (prediction from).
Dreams show us a vent which we have not explored. Ego is our only
reality- of which we know nothing. Inspiration comes in flashes but
experience is constant.
The abstract-actual is a belief, and, being believed is true; therefore,
suppositions believed become substantiated by intangible hyle. There is
only infinite actuality, and truth is what we make it: our inexact
juxtapositing, blending with muddy interferences, baffle us and our
Zos spake thus: fornicatus benedictus! The best things are obtained by

spunk. But this met
separateness by means of another- and not reality as-it-is-in-itself. It
commands us to feel freely and deeply without restraint until worn out
with the effort for unity. Still, what would you in a world of limited sex?
No scrotum outlasts the morning...


I can conceive God in You and You in

Me- a new Anthropolatory: God in us all and in all potencies. We cannot


Life has many doors and there are many different Heavens. Death is one
such door.
All knowledge becomes good or evil. Our wonderment at spatial
creativeness striving to glean or grasp something beyond the dimensional
is more proliferant of significant Ideas and more effacing of low levels

Any stimulus may produce almost any response rectified by its
functional direction and our ability of expression. Whether stimulus is

chain of medianimity that reflects what is put into it and reacts in a
manner predetermined by the capability of the medium. All kinds of
matter are permeable by other suitable kinds and energy is always either
entranced or active in matter which, when saturated by it, formulates,
differentiates and separates- and entity becomes...
Physiology and consciousness (body and Ego) are phenomena that occur,
not as casually connective but as conjunctional all the time (in some
indirect manner). Philosophy should awaken to the fact that science itself
works on philosophical presuppositions but is itself no better off with its

The flesh inherits all things.
The last act man will forego is his sadism.
Human inventiveness: Ego and Sin.
All virtues are expendable and dissipate easily, whereas evil is ever near
and plethoric.
The beginning of Wisdom: "Wouldst thou be virtuous? Then search out
thine own evil" (Epictetus) [Footnote: Stoic philosopher ca. 60-110 A.D.]
Thence the Stoic diverts his own evil to combat other evil. Yes, and cast
his bread upon the waters, without thought of return: what hurt shall
accrue? Virtue by stealth, fearless condemnation of evil.

Our significance: a virus or an axial shift could destroy mankind totally.
Consciousness may result from a reaction to infinite impacts.
If we could define all the conceivable connections that a concept could
imply we would have a complete definition of it. But what is a concept? It
is essentially hypothetical and related to concepts; a visualized

transcribed into wordspecial form of cognition, therefore any conceptual value within its own
context is not true universally, but is true, conatively, as means or
Truth is a bogey; K our question should be not whether true or
J not, but- is

ability; therefore, if we can discover the correct medium for anything
whatsoever- abstract or concrete- manifestation will follow.
The magician is Inscrutable: the verification of all inconceivable

Did not great Satyros tell me: "I am with you always, your way".
A thing produced by any thing is as natural (or unnatural) as that thing;
it does not reveal (either way) is latent within it. Therefore, if

not, each other. Therefore, whatever man is, he has within him whatever
caused him.
There are words of everlasting luster, sound sequences that may be
alogical yet as near to Truth as it is ever possible to get.
Certain sequences of sounds and signs, all of which have untrue
meanings- could set this world aflame.
The shifting meanings of our intertwisted nomenclature, inexact
references and ambiguities, have the virtue of spatial span and are
evocative by selective expressionism having an emotional quality which
gives aesthetic validity, whereas more formal phrasing would convey far
Truisms and generalizations are concretions of discursive cognition,
dangerous outside their own framework. Hence the magician uses such
means for expressive evocation, etc. Normal language is concerned with
conveying to others deceptions, hopes, fears, knowledge, desires, etc., to

concern is to obtain from the subconsciousness answers to requests
(another form of prayer) by primitive symbolism. It is believed that such
intercommunication is possible only by cryptographic symbols: a
transference of the intuitive to the tactual.
Man is a very mean measure of all he is liable to conceive, and of the
forgotten residue of his experiences. All truths are dimensional (often of
two) and always directional, but what we often discount or overlook is
the elasticity and tolerance of forms (as now), and that at any time and
place anything may be true or not. Relativity is no more true than not-
therefore a thing is equal to its degree (in direction).

instance). Neither time nor space actually expand, they merely alter
relations by formal stages. We are those changes and relations,
contracting, individuating, etc.
If we constantly circumambulated the span of our orbit we would never
intersect or retrace our previous footsteps. We would be traversing a
Sisyphean eternity; everything would be changed, including our form of
apprehension: our constants, our differences to... and our ability to
copulate somewhere. Ultimately, we do not so much desire to know the
meanings of things as what they mean to us, but to know what they
mean in themselves, as reality. The Stoic shares reality by tolerant
acceptances. Such a quizzical attitude receives answers which- whether
true or not- become the embellishments of life... as appreciating beauty
where it concerns us. A thing that appears repulsive and ugly does so
only in ratio to our degree of tolerance. A worm to a worm is beautiful-
and it is unnecessary for us to turn worm-like to know it- we are already
too worm-like.
Nothing in Nature has been so maligned, castigated, wordily mutilated
and destroyed, as man. Actually, I have my tongue in my cheek for I
know that whatever has been derogated of him- I am worse. Man is

- and his only salvation. Man has little or not feeling

for selfkick, his reactions are... !
Unheeded, the Ids stutter their meanings as desires and function

realities through our imperfect perceptions of them. Hence, Desire, Will,
Belief, as functional, are more contrary than harmonious, the Ids always
triumph, hiding our true function; they never die, only diversify. If you
cannot stomach them in one way, you will in another. Truth is the ethos
of our vast emotional complex reared on the structure of the Ids.


eits, a new
variety of mentation, of analysis,

reversions or higher general levels towards that which has been already
reached. What is not perceived cannot concern us, although man
generally is endlessly improvable. Man may be a stasis- sufficient:
geometry exhausted. Man is the miracle of creation, there is nothing
better than flesh, i.e., flesh at its best. It is our reactions that are at fault.
The thesis of Karma is the only rational explanation of fate- by abstract
or other thought. Only the all magnanimous Stoic sayeth: All suffering is
self inflicted.

I am I

Having realized our reality, its potency, its vast heritage and the
delegated supremacy of Ego- promising the surpassing of all
limitations- we blink, close our eyes, seek for all littlenesses and harness
our desires to the corrupt outgrowths of our Ids. Is there no antidote for
self-poisoning from our substitute realities? There is only stupendous
Reality to embrace: cease doubting! Death is a relatively small event in
living- less and less in your infinity, your reality.
No excogitation but instinctive guessing is still our best guide in the
When we appreciate vibrantly the vast significance of all creation,
however small our understanding- then we are endowed with a measure
of significance.
All experiences are sensations by impacts. Man is basically dominated by
his Ids (passions) and is entirely determined by his loves and hates. He
would remain either static or destroy himself except that the a priori
pushes him, willy-nilly, through his sense of morality and social
convention. There is compromise.
Dialectical and rational: The acceptance of all things, including Nature
and our own small contra nature, everything as reality without
reservations. Unfortunately we cannot swallow all this at one time, our
form and aptitude preclude it.
All forms of reality appear to exist within their own rights. How much
they derive from and rely upon unknown sources is guesswork. As a
general observation, we can assert that everything acts as a means to
everything else and that whatever is operating is of greater intelligence
than ourselves. But, however much is disclosed to us is, comparatively, a
mere iota of the whole. Everything is activated by a mind greater than its

Self-masochistic-sadism: Love thyself as thy neighbour.
The law of genius is its own lawlessness of truth, its own inspiration; of
originality, its own necessity;
of conation, its own spontaneity; of Nature,

its own individuation, etc. I
If we prohibit others from thinking for us, and if we have little capacity
gs in thought will
think for us. Any part of a whole derives its ethos from the whole, and
when so posited will function as a whole. Much
of our mentation is a

bloody ideographs live for us...
I could not repent, I could not pray, or ask forgiveness, so gave others
repentance, prayers, forgiveness, and repaid God also. How? By revealing

beauty where not yet seen. I
bothering to be logical.
Concepts that have no sensuous form (reasoning, thinking, etc.) spring
from a latent geometry of our mentation: our geometry is the silhouette of
a priori.



I bid you replace time by your immanence.

...And I
dark astral, a reversed and inverted shadow. Dead stuff, the body, like
food that by re-dressing cannot simulate again the magic
We came out of eternity and absoluteness into time. Is there a returning?
And what of our sentiment, the vast rag-bag of our emotional range-
must these trivia re-enter? Do all our strivings and ideals count as
nought? As the lover of flesh and humanity I prefer Time to Eternity.
The supreme defeat is resignation. The triumph over death and all things
is by fearless desire. There is not one thing obtains in this world except
by effort and struggle to render desire. The born genius is only spending
the virtue of previous effort.
The Gods do unto you whatsoever you do unto others; also, what you do
unto yourself will be becoming to you.

Beauty appeals because it is the most rational thing we know.
Truth as the sentient, and Reality in all its forms, shapes a quadra and
presents to view a spatial quinary: two profiles, many three-quarters, full
face and backside. All theotheses give some sort of view, none the entire
view, but a synthesis of all philosophy would give the most acceptable.
Hence I accept not the circumviatory view of things but our obliqueness
as essential for any stance; our metamorphosis is by such reorientation
from the stock-pile of acceptances...
We must constantly create our duality- and constantly do so, willy-nilly.
Anti-climax of our purpose by allegory: the Potter and his wheel mean
more to me than all the religions; he works from his necessity for the
necessary, often giving exhilarating beauty from himself to others.
Gods, Soul and everything is as flesh, whatever the textures, and as
concrete as our own. We are ever terms of existence whatever our fluxing
consciousness permits. Those dupes who deny their flesh are either
drug-sodden or self-hypnotized, have simply failed their flesh, afraid of
life, would beg their sustenance and the mind has tired of them. They live
as under a stone with their stinking theses. Again, I state that although
all their wisdom and inaccurate visions are from the same source they

which they owe everything.
Life seems a lengthy process of waiting for the materialization of oneself
as representative of, and equal to, our ideal or desire, because we are
ever as we are- the realized incarnation of our last self, forever...
Some laziness has this merit: while so, we are seldom predatory and
interfering, and, perhaps like many, indifferent to much, thinking that
success these days is no more desirable than failure.
The law is so contemptible that its chief service should be to estimate its
The ancestral sea: constant ebb and flow, and ever causal- spawning. So
like us, yet unstable with ever changing mood out-masquerading all
masqueraders, all women; terrible, or as beautiful as crushed sapphires,
glittering. It goes on for ever with serum-soaked ebb and flow.
To whom the Ids obey- now is the moment when immanence is

Whatever the nexus between things may be, the effect is... a constant
changing conjunctiveness.
Nothing enters the mind save from experience. And how far back and
forgotten the experiencing? And how far forward goeth the further
experiencing? Is it some vicious circle of one experience, infinitely split,
re-experiencing... so much?
Living according to any preconceived thesis or ideal may be as crippling
as living up to any worn out shibboleth, clich, or similar absurdity; the
disguises of the Ids are many. Therefore the Stoic adopts his own virtue
and behaviourisms to which (by singleness) he automatically responds.
His instincts healthily revived, he smells out all falsity and fallacy. He
does what he so will and takes all responsibility- thus the virtue. Do as
you please, to whom the pleasing is the law. Only what you enact has
sincerity and the potent form of affection.
Between all things are strata of experience, stimulating by similarity the
tendency to remember and to inherit. We emerge from one thing into
another leaving a crypto-psychism of our knowledge which, ghost-like,
lives on, adumbrating our fatalities whereby our past constantly reenters us. What we reactivate is determined by our belief, will, desire,
and action. Were I a vampire what somnambulists would I awaken!
When the great fatigue overtakes me, and life and myself tire of the poor
media, judgment after death will be my least worry. Our good and evil
live on; expiation will come with re-birth.
How much I spawn!- as wind-blown, how little fertile.
When people tell me they have experienced everything... I gas p! What
they really mean is this: these are the things they have known- usually
of poverty-stricken unities and frustrations.
From childhood until death we seek and enjoy a substitutive reality,
unwittingly making a parallel. We instinctively imitate the fact that we
are the substitute of a greater reality- ever seeking compensation by
substitution, for being substitute; a double paradox.
By relativeness we are as diatoms emerging from the ooze of becoming.
Likewise by relativeness we are greater than anything we conceive or
know. Our accomplishment is in our greater reality as individuals (by
If the Absolute is absolute, nothing is impossible; which implies that
arbitrarily without necessity- the Absolute, like Jove, may take pleasure

in contact with human flesh... why not? If we are to have the miraculous
what then is more wonderful than giving dimensions to infinities?
We seldom realize that life is a constant dramatic interaction of our
visible unions and separations, motivated by our invisible unities and
dissolutions. We awake to further indeterminateness.
The blind still lead the blind. How frustrated are the materialists in that
they cannot envisage the manner of the interaction of life on matter...
thus resorting to the absurdities of blind forces and accidental byproducts! What knowledge Nature has disclosed they have abused in
destructive beastliness- indeed, we all await annihilation. So, why
should greater knowledge be given? Man has reached his full foulness-
has become himself a blind force in an accidental by-product and, like
Judas, betrays us for a few pieces of silver.
For those who fear reality, life becomes belated and a staleness- an ever
re-living of yesterdays in phantasy.
The fractional second is the path I would open...
natural ability to attract without asking.


Mathematically, square and circle are zero forms- the symbols of eternity

asymmetry. The square is the rectified and utilitarian form of the circle;

Life is the anticipated situation that never happens; our expectancies
create a foetal wish that is never birthed.
Where beauty and virtue are wanting, everything will be wanting but
Man ever aberrates- even his normalities!- mainly to compensate for his
deficiencies, and often founds a shadow-world that accepts and reflects
the assured survival of his weakness.
What stupidities benight the assertion that anything was created
unrelated to all else; if things were entirely separate, complete, they
would be static and quickly exhausted. Life, growth, change, into and out
of things to all possible transmutations. All things serve each other,
willingly or otherwise. Yet we live by every means a partitiveness and
make our ignorance as permanent as possible... and nothing seems more
lasting than a lie.
We are millions of yesterdays, and what appears autogenetic is the work

of unknown mediators who permit, or not, our acts by the mysterious
chemistry of our believing.



overadorns, paints, ostentatiously clothes and transfers to mode. The

is often to marry a fiction. Our work and behaviour is the truer portrait,

When thought dissociates itself from the correspondences and gradations
between contrasting things, these will re-form abundantly; final

representation is an asymmetrical balance. T
level of our genius.
So, rightly or wrongly, I think this: what was once free, casual, and
formless seeks arbitrary laws, is precipitated into time and dimensional
form with definite functional purpose and direction about which we can
only guess- to realize all probabilities within definite limits- unreached
...That wonderful first glance at anything which is fleeting but, if caught,
suspires into great Art.

questions, comments, take-down requests, reporting broken-links etc.
contact me @ integralyogin at gmail dot com






The Logomachy of Zos

--- DICTIONARIES (in Dictionaries, in Quotes, in Chapters)

--- QUOTES [1 / 1000 - 0 / 500] (in Dictionaries, in Quotes, in Chapters)

KEYS (10k)

   1 Austin Osman Spare


1:Darken your room, shut the door, empty your mind. Yet you are still in great company - the Numen and your Genius with all their media, and your host of elementals and ghosts of your dead loves - are there! They need no light by which to see, no words to speak, no motive to enact except through your own purely formed desire. ~ Austin Osman Spare, The Logomachy of Zos ,

*** NEWFULLDB 2.4M ***

--- IN CHAPTERS (in Dictionaries, in Quotes, in Chapters)


The_Logomachy_of_Zos, #unset, #Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, #Christianity
  object:The Logomachy of Zos
  The Logomachy of ZoS
  By Austin Osman Spare