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   2 Ntozake Shange

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1:one thing i dont need is any more apologies i got sorry greetin me at my front door you can keep yrs i dont know what to do wit em they dont open doors or bring the sun back they dont make me happy ~ Ntozake Shange,
2:lady in blue one thing i dont need is any more apologies i got sorry greetin me at my front door you can keep yrs i dont know what to do wit em they dont open doors or bring the sun back they dont make me happy or get a mornin paper didnt nobody stop usin my tears to wash cars cuz a sorry i am simply tired of collectin ‘i didnt know i was so important to you’ i’m gonna haveta throw some away i cant get to the clothes in my closet for alla the sorries i’m gonna tack a sign to my door leave a message by the phone ‘if you called to say yr sorry call somebody else i dont use em anymore’ i ~ Ntozake Shange,

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   16 Integral Yoga


   16 The Mother
   15 Satprem


   4 Agenda Vol 10
   3 Agenda Vol 13
   2 Agenda Vol 09


0 1961-07-15, #Agenda Vol 02, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   I dont know what to do. Its not easy.
   (Mother rises)

0 1962-07-31, #Agenda Vol 03, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   Oh, I dont know what to do!
   Here, Ill give you an example: A. wrote to tell me, If you know how to get in touch with Agni,1 let me know, because I need him! I gave the natural reply, that whats needed is aspiration for progress, a will for perfection, and that you kindle the fire by burning your desires. I told him this in a way I call very concrete. Well, he answered (laughing), Ohhh! Youre living in abstractions. Thats not what I want, I want a living goda personality, you see!

0 1963-09-25, #Agenda Vol 04, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   But the night before, I was with Sri Aurobindo, who gave me a revelation. I was with him, he was reclining (not stretched out but on a sort of chaise longue) and I was supposed to bring him something to eat (not at all like physical food, its something else I dont know what it is its rather different in that world the subtle physical), and it was expressed to me (there were no words in my consciousness; I dont know why, no words), he told me something which I understood perfectly, not only understood but it made me very happy, a joy came into me, and I answered, Yes, exactly! It corresponds to the experience I had today and which is??? (Mother leaves her sentence hanging) You see, I was conscious while I was having all the activity, but it was expressed in words [there] that arent words [here], so I dont know what to do! And he told me in the tone you take when expressing a definitive and overwhelming experience (his tone was one of absolute power) something that was translated like this: Now, the nourishment (it wasnt nourishment but food) comes from the whole of Nature at once. (Mother utters those words like a riddle or an open sesame that has not yet opened the door) And he told me to bring it to him (that too was a translation): Yes, you will bring it (the it was that food coming from the whole Nature at onceits a seemingly silly transcription, but anyway), you will bring it in this translucent bowl. And I replied, Yes, I knew, I knew that I had to use this translucent bowl to bring you the food. But what on earth does that correspond to?? Yet it was so evident! There was such a joy! (Because as I was conscious, I thought, Well, all the same, I am still following him closely in his development, its going on as when he was here: when he wins a victory, it is materialized in me.) Thus I was perfectly conscious and I told him, Ah, I am glad! (I am faltering, of course, it wasnt that at allit was admirable.) Oh, I am glad, I knew that I had to bring you the food in this translucent bowl. And the translucent bowl was a marvel! I had it, you see, it was beautiful! It was like opaline, living glass, all luminous but with all the lights alive and moving, and what colors! Pink, mauve, silver and gold, oh, it was so very beautiful. And I brought it to him.
   It impressed me very strongly. Very strongly: I was under a spell, probably because the experience was still too strong and powerful for the material brain. And I saw it immediately; at the very moment of the experience, I saw it was a transcription, and an extraordinarily poor transcription, but nothing better could be done.

0 1965-09-25, #Agenda Vol 06, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   Ah, but this wont do for an aphorism, its not an answer to what Sri Aurobindo says! No, I told you, I had the experience long ago. I remember, it was so lovely, so clear, so luminous, and I expressed it so well to myself (!), it would have made a very nice little article! But now its there, behind (gesture over the shoulder), far, far behind. So I dont know what to do.
   I think unless you have a question to ask (but you see the condition!), well take up our Savitri.

0 1967-08-26, #Agenda Vol 08, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   I dont know what to do. I feel she has a need in her, a sincere need, and she wants to find a way out, without being able to.
   She doesnt entirely want to.

0 1968-02-17, #Agenda Vol 09, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   I dont know what to do.
   I dont find it interesting.

0 1968-04-06, #Agenda Vol 09, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   I didnt want to make rules for Auroville, but I am going to be forced to start formulating certain things, because there happens to be difficulties. I dont know what to do.
   What I wanted to say came; its very simple (Mother takes a written note), simply like this (its about very small things):

0 1969-02-22, #Agenda Vol 10, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   Oh, words are useless, I dont know what to do, I dont know if its because I have too few of them, or because they really All mental expression seems artificial; it gives a sense of a lifeless coating. Its odd. And the entire language belongs to that region. When I want to say that experience With some people, I very clearly, very easily make contact in the silence, and I tell them infinitely more things than I could with words; its more supple, more precise, deeper I might say that words, sentences, written things strike me as a two-dimensional image (the ordinary image), while this contact, which I can have with people as soon as I stop speaking, adds a depth and something truer (its not wholly true, far from it, but its truer), and there is a depth.
   (silence)

0 1969-02-26, #Agenda Vol 10, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   Thats a wholly inadequate and stupid description, but I dont know what to do! There are no words. Its an approximation.
   And all that takes place within a permanent Consciousness (Mother makes a round gesture), solid, you know, extraordinarily stable! Its everywhere like that.

0 1969-04-02, #Agenda Vol 10, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   I dont know what to do. For a long time now, all sorts of people have been coming to see me. I wonder what I should do: say no? Or acceptsince they come, accept?
   Its not always useful, is it?

0 1969-11-05, #Agenda Vol 10, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   To tell the truth, I dont know what to do. On Wednesdays and Saturdays, I keep things to a minimum, that is to say, I turn down more than half the people. And this is how it is. And the other days, sometimes I keep working till noon. It has become
   Yet I start early But the requests [to see Mother] come to me through at least one, two, three, four eight people: each of them brings requests. So there would be only one way, thats to have several bodies!
  --
   I dont know what to do. Id really like I consider it should be at least one hour, a minimum of one hour, twice a week. I made that resolve long ago.
   I could fix it an hour earlier, but then all the people would be waiting and pressing.

0 1971-03-06, #Agenda Vol 12, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   Its an invasion! An invasion. Its dreadful. I dont know what to do.
   And your news?

0 1972-03-10, #Agenda Vol 13, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   If only I were given a plan. I havent seen to these things so far, but if there were an acceptable plan, I could work on it. Right now I dont know what to do.
   Ill speak to N. right away, Mother, and see what he thinks. Perhaps today proposals can be made and solutions envisagedleaving things as they are may be possible but dangerous.

0 1972-04-12, #Agenda Vol 13, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   But I dont know what to do. Nothing seems able to subdue it. I dont know what to do.
   Well, the only way is. If you can avoid listening, its better, but if you do listen, the only reply is: I dont care what you say, I dont careconstantly. Youll become stupid I dont care. Youll spoil all your work I dont care. To all those perverse arguments the same reply: I dont care.

0 1972-08-12, #Agenda Vol 13, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   I dont know, its like a pain in the heart, Mother. I cant get rid of it, you see. I dont know what to do.
   You must go deeper. You feel sad because you are in a very superficial consciousness you must go deeper, into a deeper consciousness.

1951-05-05 - Needs and desires - Discernment - sincerity and true perception - Mantra and its effects - Object in action- to serve - relying only on the Divine, #Questions And Answers 1950-1951, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   One does not have the discernment because one does not care to have it! Listen, I dont think there is a single instance in which one does not find within oneself something very clear, but you must sincerely want to knowwe always come back to the same thingyou must sincerely want it. The first condition is not to begin thinking about the subject and building all sorts of ideas: opposing ideas, possibilities, and entering into a formidable mental activity. First of all, you must put the problem as though you were putting it to someone else, then keep silent, remain like that, immobile. And then, after a little while you will see that at least three different things may happen, sometimes more. Take the case of an intellectual, one who acts in accordance with the indications of his head. He has put the problem and he waits. Well, if he is indeed attentive, he will notice that there is (the chronological order is not absolute, it may come in a different order) at first (what is most prominent in an intellectual) a certain idea: If I do that in this way, it will be all right; it must be like that, that is to say, a mental construction. A second thing which is a kind of impulse: That will have to be done. That is good, it must be done. Then a third which does not make any noise at all, does not try to impose itself on the others, but has the tranquillity of a certitudenot very active, not giving a shock, not pushing to action, but something that knows and is very quiet, very still. This will not contradict the others, will not come and say, No, thats wrong; it says simply, See, it is like this, thats all, and then it does not insist. The majority of men are not silent enough or attentive enough to be aware of it, for it makes no noise. But I assure you it is there in everybody and if one is truly sincere and succeeds in being truly quiet, one will become aware of it. The thinking part begins to argue, But after all, this thing will have this consequence and that thing will have that consequence, and if one does this and this, and that and its noise begins again. The other (the vital) will say, Yes, it must be done like that, it must be done, you dont understand, it must, it is indispensable. There! Then you will know. And according to your nature you will choose either the vital impulse or the mental leading, but very seldom do you say quite calmly, Good, it is this I am going to do, whatever happens, and even if you dont like it very much. But it is always there. I am sure that it is there even in the murderer before he kills, you understand, but his outer being makes such a lot of noise that it never even occurs to him to listen. But it is always there, always there. In every circumstance, there is in the depth of every being, just this little (one cant call it voice, for it makes no sound) this little indication of the divine Grace, and sometimes to obey it requires a tremendous effort, for all the rest of the being opposes it violently, one part with the conviction that what it thinks is true, another with all the power, the strength of its desire. But dont tell me that one cant know, for that is not true. One can know. But one does not always know what is necessary, and sometimes, if one knows what is to be done, well, one finds some excuse or other for not doing it. One tells oneself, Oh! I am not so sure, after all, of this inner indication; it does not assert itself with sufficient force for me to trust it. But if you were quite indifferent, that is, if you had no desire, either mental or vital or physical desire, you would know with certainty that it is that which must be done and nothing else. What comes and gets in the way is preferencepreferences and desires. Every day one may have hundreds and hundreds of examples. When people begin to say, Truly I dont know what to do, it always means that they have a preference. But as here in the Ashram they know there is something else and as at times they have been a little attentive, they have a vague sensation that it is not quite that: It is not quite that, I dont feel quite at ease. Besides, you were saying a while ago that it is the result which gives you the indication; it has even been said (it has been written in books) that one judges the divine Will by the results! All that succeeds has been willed by the Divine; all that doesnt, well, He has not willed it! This is yet again one of those stupidities big as a mountain. It is a mental simplification of the problem, which is quite comic. Thats not it. If one can have an indication (in proportion to ones sincerity), it is uneasiness, a little uneasinessnot a great uneasiness, just a little uneasiness.
   Here, you know, you have another means, quite simple (I dont know why you do not use it, because it is quite elementary); you imagine I am in front of you and then ask yourself, Would I do this before Mother, without difficulty, without any effort, without something holding me back? That will never deceive you. If you are sincere you will know immediately. That would stop many people on the verge of folly.

4.04 - Weaknesses, #Words Of The Mother II, #The Mother, #Integral Yoga
   to something tamasic, inert and dark. I cannot get rid of this. Help me, Mother I dont know what to do, everything is dark, dark, dark. I dont know how long
  I can hold out against this, a sort of something which gradually drains my energy and wants to draw me into itself. Mother help me, I really dont know what to do.

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