Someone disappears, people ask me where he is, whether hes dead or alive. Someone else has worries: he wants to see me. Someone People I dont know at all! A stack of letters! They ask me for success in their business, for good health, for a child (a boy!), a good job. Anyway everything that people are capable of wanting, they write and ask me. Oh, there are also those who ask me to tell their fortune! Many ask me, but I answer them bluntly, I am not a fortuneteller, I dont read tea leaves!
(Mother scribbles a note)
Here is an answer Ill have sent to all those people whom I dont know and who ask me for things: What have you given to the Lord, or done for Him, that you ask me to do something for you?I do only the Lords work! (Mother laughs)
You know, its clearly millions and millions of miles away from their thought, so
Its funny, no? Even Nolini would be shocked! (Mother laughs heartily) But I find it funny.
Basically, their idea of the divine is something thats at their service that knows a little more than you do (!) and is at your service to give you whatever you desire.
***
After a meditation with Satprem:
I again saw a square shape, like last time, in front of you, but this time it was different: there was a bright golden light, and that square shape was here (gesture between the throat and the solar plexus), in front of you, then it rose and rose and rose like that, slowly, very slowly, above your head, and there it spread out into a great light a very quiet light.
I think its the symbol of your meditation. A squarea perfect square, I mean, about this size, from there to there (from the top of the head to the solar plexus): thats you when you meditate. Its quite established, like something firmly established, and then slowly, very slowly, it rose and rose and rose above your head, and there not violently, of course, it didnt burst out, but it spread out into an Immensity of light.
The symbol of your consciousness.
Its always a square shape.
Last time, I told you there were those Tantric lights; this time, there was a pale gold, very luminous, very tranquil, and the shape [of the square] was like a somewhat more golden vibration, a little darker (but not dark), and it stayed still a very long time, till suddenly I felt in your consciousness as if something were opening out, relaxing and opening out, like a sort of well-being in your consciousness. And no sooner did that happen than the square began to rise and rise and rise above your head, and there
Is it the symbol of your meditation or the symbol of your consciousness?The symbol of your consciousness.
Did you feel, towards the middle of your meditation, a kind of sudden relaxing, an inner well-being?
Yes, I felt it.
Then thats it.
As soon as you felt it, it started rising until as though it merged into an infinite.
But its good.
Very good.
Do you have anything to tell me? We still have a quarter of an hour.
What?
Some things have been very present in my consciousness latelydeath.
Death?
Very present.
Its because yes.
And youre wondering what it means?
I sense a threat, something lying in wait; like a Fate lying in wait, very close, and as the end of the year draws near, it becomes heavier and heavier.
(silence)
Sujata also felt it these last few months but Ive been feeling it for a long time. I sense something lying in wait, something hanging over her and over me I dont know which of the two. In the past I didnt often think of death, but now it comes to my mind constantly.
But what do you call death?!
I mean, leaving this body.
As a thing personal to you?
It expresses itself personally, though it may be something more general, I dont know.
(Mother remains silent) Two years ago I used to see it over you very muchmuch more than now. It seems to have moved away, so thats strange.1
Two years ago, when I was still going downstairs, when I used to see you in Pavitras office.
There was a time when I intervened (it was the time of the Swamis activities and all that). It was over you at that time. But lately I havent seen anything specialattacks do come periodically along with the suggestion of all kinds of catastrophic possibilities: nothing more particular to you than to others. Its part of the work, I dont pay any attention to it.
But as for a quite personal threat to you, things seem much better now than they were two years ago.
Only, it may be that because of the work I am doing, you are brought into contact with a certain layer of possibilities and so you become more conscious of that. As for Sujata, she must be unknowingly under your influence, so what you feel she feels too thats my impression.
Ill look, but I havent seen anything lately. On the contrary, that thing I used to see over you at that time and drive away deliberately, since the beginning of this year in particular I havent seen it Ill look.
I rather feel that a work is going on in the field of your consciousness, something which is awakening, which was less conscious beforeits more that than an impending danger.
How does your body feel? Still tired?
Not too brilliant. Oh, you know, Ive always thought that 63 would be a very important date for me. Why, I dont know.
Yes, because we WANT it very important!
One thing has been coming back to me almost obstinately lately, its the memory (thats whats odd, it comes as a MEMORY, as though it were something I had lived), the memory of your concentration camp. Very odd. It came back to me perhaps two or three weeks ago, I dont know, very strongly. I even lookedstudied, ratherwhat the consequences were for your body. Studied and well, did what was needed.
I dont know, I cant say, because for all these experiences I try to drive all thoughts as far away as possible, because they dont help to get the correct perception. So that I cant say whether or not there was a reason for that memoryto tell the truth, the mind always finds reasons for everything, so You know, I am not occupied with those things, I dont try to know, and therefore they dont comethey come of their own accord. There was obviously a necessity: all that comes is necessary, I know that, otherwise it wouldnt come. But that memory didnt bring with it any sense or perception of a danger to your physical life, not in the least. I dont have that perception, while I did have it two years ago. Now I dont have it.
But I remember that for a few days I was occupied with that memory, as part of a vast work on certain physical vibrations, in all the physical domains with which I deal. And it came (strangely, its always LOCATED, located somewhere), and the perception I have is very acute, absolutely like the perception of something that happened to me personally (but all that comes to me now comes in this way). Only, there was the knowledge that it was your own body that had gone through that experience. And then yes, I remember, there was a certain quality of vibration (Mother looks silently), and it was connected with a study on the experience the cells gain in the process of death. I remember, I was studying the cellular experiences (which the cells have more often than not semiconsciously and often unconsciously), those semiconscious experiences that stay in the subconscient and help to make some cells more and more receptive and prepared for the new Force. And as I was studying that, your experience of the camps came, and I saw in fact that a certain number of your cells, a rather considerable number (cells that are partly in the brain, partly in the throat center and partly here [gesture to the upper part of the chest]) have had the preliminary experience of death.
And that gives them a very special capacity of consciousness.
Could this be what gave you that sense of death? But you say it has been there for a long time. While, for me, its recent (it was perhaps ten days ago), my study is recent. It was very interesting. I can still see them now, they were as if located in certain parts of your body.
But thats a favorable observation, not a dangerous one!
Favorable, how?
Favorable, oh, yes! Favorable in the sense that those cells are far more conscious than cells are ordinarily.
Because they had that experience?
Yes, because they had that experience and survivedbecause the form survived that experience.
From the standpoint of a higher receptivity, it has a very, very considerable importance I mean receptivity to the new forces, a preparation to receive the new forces.
(silence)
But things are rather complex. For the body in its ordinary consciousness, its absolutely normal state is when it doesnt feel itself living. When the body doesnt feel itself living, that means its functioning normally; as soon as it feels itself living in some part of itself, it means that something isnt quite normal, and instinctively (I dont mean the vital or mental consciousness), but its primal consciousness is alarmed, because its not normal (not what it calls normal); and then that sort of alarm (an alarm thats not formulated in thoughts) brings it into contact with a whole world of adverse and defeatist suggestionsoh, there is an INTENSE atmosphere of pessimistic, defeatist, adverse suggestions in which human lives are bathed, as it were. Its even very strong here, very strong I mean in the Ashramvery strong. People who are very sensitive and whose consciousness isnt firmly rooted in faith are very (what shall I say?) very deeply not deeply but intimately attacked by that atmosphere.
And it makes bodies very ill-at-ease.
(silence)
I will look again,2 but for the moment, it seems to me, its a period or a stage in the integral development that brings you into contact with death. Its an impersonal thing and I dont see anything ominous about it, I mean I dont consider your feeling as premonitoryexcept that Death is everywhere in the world, of course! Well, thats all, it boils down to that.
There, mon petit.
That may be it, because there is an interesting work going on within you.
My impression If you ask me, my impression is to the contrary: its that for the moment, I am preparing a new life for you. Voil.
You should I dont even feel the need to tell you, but whats necessary is to fasten ones consciousness imperturbably to something which, in fact, isnt personalto the New Realization.
And if you feel those defeatist vibrations, know that things are now a battlefield, a field of action, very active. You see, the battle is being waged in the body every minuteall the time, all the time. I dont expect others to wage it along with me; only, if on their part they hold on to what MUST BE, thats all that is needed.
In fact, the physical blow will come a year later and Satprem will nearly die from it.
Occultly, to see if there is a real threat over Satprem.
***
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